loss for words

lost in outer space

i want to climb a ladder up to the moon,
a doorway into a new world, up where the constellations live.
up high i can see the wolves howl and the blinding lights of the night

i want to live here in space, in the empty void,
because that's where i need to be.
with the other millions of stars that have already died, but to us, they still exist.

that's where i belong, lost in the cosmos. lost and will never be found.

i think i'm okay with that, leaving everything behind.
i want to be non-existent.
but sometimes, life just calls me back home.
back to a place, i just don't want to be, and yet i still go back,
but i continue to long for the stars out there.