Wolves Without Hearts

☾ Chapter 45 ☾

☾ T Y T O ☾ 

Everything was dark.

The last thing I remembered was my mate's face as she held me, and now the darkness gathered around. It blocked out what little light my subconscious supplied and I was left alone with my thoughts. Not even Ignis was here to listen and therefore I was truly alone.

Although I would much rather be awake, it gave me time to think. Time to reflect on what had happened these past few months and what might happen when I wake up.

If I do wake up that is.

When I thought about it, I wouldn't change what happened, well except what happened with Warren. It would have been better if he were actually dead. But other than that, I am happy that I was put into a position where I met my mate. If not for that, I would still have been suffering as an omega while Ulfric laughed from a distance.

Thinking back to my time with Calixa, I realize that she hasn't been the best mate due to her stubbornness and wish to be independent. Although I understand her desire to stay a lone, female alpha, I wish she would have made more of an effort to at least have me by her side.

Even so, I still want to accept our bond.

Calixa might be stubborn and independent but I'm not asking to take her independence, I only want her heart. If she wants to be the Alpha, I will let her and I will serve alongside her.

I just worry what's really going on in that beautiful brain of hers.

She's been through so much and it's hard for me to even begin to see past her stoic expressions. One things that's for sure, she's had a lot of practice hiding her feelings in order to make the pack feel secure and to do her duty. She's such a strong she wolf and I want to take some of the burden of being an Alpha off of her shoulders; I just hope she will allow it.

...

Before I could reflect more on my bond with Calixa, I felt myself being shaken from my comatose as someone was saying my name.

"Tyto," I heard the voice say, though I couldn't quite make out who it was, "You need to wake up, I need you to wake up."

I forced my bleary mind to focus on the voice and tried to open my eyes. For a moment I was able to peel my lids open, only to close them again due to the blinding light of wherever I was. I heard some rustling and the voice said, "Come on Tyto, I know you can do it. The lights are off now, please open your eyes."

I obeyed and pried open my eyes and looked around to find that I was in still in the council building but I was in the medical wing. When I glanced to my right I saw my mate looking expectantly at me.

When neither of us said anything, she sighed and broke the silence, "I'm glad you're awake Tyto. You were out for almost a week."

My eyes widened, "A week?" I echoed, my voice just as shocked as I was feeling. I knew that I had been injured but I didn't think that my father got me good enough for me to be out for that long.

"Yes, a week," she confirmed looking at me with an emotion that I couldn't quite describe, "When you are all healed, Ryder wants to speak with you about you taking over as King of the wolves."

I nodded, "Sure... What exactly happened since I've been out?"

"Well, your father has been taken into custody and the council has mostly been slaughtered except for our sources from the inside. Ryder made sure to keep Alistair alive so you could question him personally. However, we still need to find the witch who was responsible for bringing him back," she replied.

I bobbed my head up and down again and moved to get up but Calixa quickly sprung to hold me down, "No getting up Tyto, you need your rest."

"Wow Calixa," I remarked, "If I knew any better I would have thought that you actually care about me."

Her eyes widened a fraction and she backed away and didn't meet my eyes. I suddenly felt bad for saying that to her but it wasn't like I was lying to her. She hasn't proven to me that she actually wants to be my mate.

"I'm sorry about that Tyto," she spoke, breaking me from my silent thoughts, "I know I haven't been the best mate but... I think going through all this has made me want to try. You've done so much for me and all I've done is push you away. You haven't even pushed my boundaries! Hell, most mates have at least kissed by now... I know that you probably won't want to take a chance with a broken Alpha female like me, especially with all that I've done to hurt you, but I promise to try. I understand if you don't-"

"Calixa," I interrupted and grasped her hand in mine, "You're rambling."

She blushed and was about to speak but I shushed her softly, "I know we've had our bad moments but I would take a thousand chances if that meant I could be with you. As long as you are willing to try, I am too."

Calixa looked at me for a moment before she leaned forward and pulled me into a hesitant hug. My abdomen ached but I ignored the pain and enjoyed the moment I had in my mate's embrace while it lasted before she pulled away.

"Thank you for giving me a chance," she whispered.

Anything for you my dear Calixa, anything for you.

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A/N: Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed this new chapter! I had time in between studying for finals and quickly wrote this up! It's a little bit of filler before I wrap up the book and Tyto and Calixa's relationship will finally come together. In what way? Well you will have to wait and see ;) Thanks for sticking with me all this time even though I have been so inconsistent and I promise to make it up to you guys if I ever write another book (I will get it done before I even start posting) To be honest these few years have been rough but I love coming on here and being able to write! I have two rough drafts for books started but they don't quite have direction yet. I hope to finally start writing something I really enjoy in the future but I'm glad my first book was a journey I could take with all of you! So again, thank you!