Bellamy Blake Imagines

If I'm Lucky

a/n - hello i'm back! i've finished my semester one of university and done all my midterm exams so i'm on uni break right now which means i can update more frequently for you guys yay! hope you all are well 

song inspiration ; based off of the song if I'm lucky by state champs.  

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IT HAD BEEN almost three weeks since you and Bellamy Blake had broken up. It was a mutual decision and there was no hate or anger, only sadness. You miss him, that much was clear.

But you both know why you had ended it, you're both trying to find your place now that you've landed on the ground. For Bellamy, that proved to be difficult without being able to talk to you.

You were, after all, best friends. Not so much anymore. Feeling his heart hurt at the sight of you, Bellamy stands beside you as you pick food from the veggie garden.

"Hello sunshine." He smiles, hoping you want to talk to him too. You turn around, looking at him with wide eyes. "Orrrr Y/N, which is your actual name. Sorry."

Sunshine. You hadn't heard anyone call you that since you were with Bellamy. Smiling up at him, you're happy to see him. "Hi Bell. What brings you here?"

Your smile makes him remember how much he really misses you. It's like summer, radiant and bright, filling him with joy. God, he misses you so much.

"I don't know." He replies honestly, looking down slightly as if to avoid judgement. "It's been so long since we've talked. I just wanted to check in with you."

You nod, "Well, I'm doing alright. There's a lot to take care of for dinner tonight."

"Right." Bellamy states, giving you a nod of his own. "Unity Day."

Smiling slightly, you look around at the busy camp, "Every year it seems to come quicker."

Bellamy hums, the faintness of a nostalgic smile etched onto his lips. "Remember last years?"

You let out a laugh, closing your eyes and shaking your head. "It's shocking that I actually do remember that night!" Your smile diminishes at the realisation that tonight may not be as great as last year was, "We had so much fun together."

"Y/N," Bellamy begins, noticing the change of mood in the conversation, "I, um, I've got a lot to talk about if you still wanna listen - or if you even care."

You frown and Bellamy feels his heart leap into his throat. "Bellamy, of course I care. We're still... friends, okay? You can come to me for anything."

Saying the word friends was difficult and uncomfortable but it's better to be friends with Bellamy rather than being nothing.

"I know it's not right to feel this way about you. Especially since we're not... together. But I just-" Bellamy lets out a long sigh, looking down at you with lost eyes, "I'm still thinking if it's worth another try." You open your mouth about to respond but deep down, Bellamy is scared of your response so he intervenes. "If you stay or if you go, I'm right there with you. I'll always be your friend and I'll always want the best for you, don't doubt that. Ever."

Smiling, you place the basket of vegetables down and head straight for his arms, resting your head against his chest. His eyes widen, you pull away.

"I've missed you so much." You admit, "But I don't know what to say."

Bellamy laughs, giving you a cheeky smile. "Well, if I'm lucky you'll say yes. What's holding you back, Y/N?"

You look into his brown eyes. "Bellamy, do you love me?"

Bellamy nearly forgets how to breathe. He almost chokes on the air in his lungs. His heart nearly stops right then and there. You notice his lost expression.

In the course of your relationship, neither of you had ever said those three words. But Bellamy knows that it's time to tell the truth. He really does love you, with all his heart.

"Yes." He nods, feeling his eyes tear up as he sees the smile grow on your lips, "And I'd be grateful to have you in my life again. I love you, Y/N. You're beautiful and you know that I'm looking for more than a pretty smile and that's you. You're everything I've ever wanted and everything I'll ever need. I love you."

You look up to meet his eyes, giving him a smile. "I love you too. More than anything. I always will." Leaning on your tiptoes, you press your lips on his as you lean your hand against his chest.

Bellamy instantly closes his eyes, smiling into the sweet kiss. When you pull back, he smirks and looks at you as his hands hold your waist. "Does this mean...?"

"I guess you're lucky." You reply, giving him a smile before another kiss is shared. And for once, Bellamy feels like he's genuinely found his place in the world; with you and you love.

↱ by octavia-marie-blake ↲