Falling - Benny and Nina - An Adapted In The Heights Roleplay (COMPLETE)

94 - Falling Near Death

A/N - Strong Language and Self Harm

The whole time Benny was still in the bathroom, once Nina ran he didn't follow, his heart wanted to, but his mind told him to stay. For the first time in their relationship he didn't follow his heart like he always had. He knew he'd fucked up and if he'd follow her, he'd only make it worse between them. All that ran through his mind was that he'd lost her for good. He wanted to find her, he wanted to run and tell her parents, but that would only give Kevin a reason to hate him and a legitimate one. At this point he wasn't even sure if Nina wanted to date him anymore.

He eventually found the energy to move to the bed. He curled up in a ball under the blanket and sobbed, large loud tears. He began to overheat a little, but refused to get out of the bed so he removed his top and shorts leaving just his boxers on.

His sobs were so loud that he didn't hear Nina return, but were evidently quiet enough for her not to notice.

He just simply laid there sobbing not knowing if Nina was ever going to return. He'd proper fucked up, he wouldn't be surprised if Nina dumped and left him after what he did to her. All he wanted to do was help her. Maybe he wasn't the best boyfriend after all.

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It had been 30 minutes, Nina wasn't coming back. He'd fucked up and there was nothing he could do about it anymore. He ran into the bathroom and saw his razor on the side.

He couldn't do it, could he. This wasn't like him. He surly couldn't bring himself to slice his arm.

Since discovering Nina's depression he'd done a little research on it and read somewhere that she may cut, a common tool being a blade or razor. Nina was the one with the depression, not him. He couldn't do that to himself? He couldn't do that to her? Could he?

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He collapsed to the bathtub floor, leaning against the back wall of the bathtub, the razor falling out his hand. The wet blood trickling down his arm onto the tub. The warm tears falling from his eyes into his shirt. What had he done?

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"Shit," Nina said, running back to the bedroom. She'd figured that he would have come out and consulted in either Vanessa or Usnavi after she ran. She ran into the bathroom, immediately seeing the blood on Benny's wrist. Nina grabbed the toilet paper off of the holder and climbed in with him, leaning against him and dabbing a bit on the cut. Once it was thoroughly soaked, she took another one and applied more pressure. When that one was soaked as well, and the blood wasn't stopping, she began to panic. Benny didn't have anything that she could wrap around it. She just continued to follow procedure until on the fourth one, only tiny beads were coming out. It was only then that she realized how Benny must be feeling. He must have been panicked at the fact that Nina found him. She wanted to wrap an arm around him, but then she'd only have one to help him with. Even though one was in a cast, she could still use it to hold the paper in place. Once the blood ceased, she looked around for anything she could wrap around it. She sighed, not finding anything but toilet paper. She wrapped some around for the time's being and then got up, saying, "I'll be right back, babe. Please don't hurt yourself anymore." She left the razor in there with him, trusting his will to leave it alone. She ran out to the kitchen and asked Usnavi if he had any bandages for the store.