NONE OF THE STUFF IN THE CHAPTER IS DIRECTED TO YOU GUYS YOU'RE ALL MY BABIES I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH FNFMGJ
i made a playlist that's 99.99% just depressed people playing the guitar UwU because i love that genre
just
idk i've been having more trouble than usual expressing my feelings lately
i feel like my depression is getting worse ugh seriously fuck OFF i don't have the time for this
but what i really fucking hate is all the people who think i'm just joking, or being overdramatic, or whatever like no this is a serious thing that is preventing me from living a typically "normal" life i can't just "get over it" it's not that easy it's not nearly that easy
i can't just go up to people and start talking to them that's not how it works
please just try to understand just a little bit
you think you understand, but you don't. you have no idea what it's like.
i'm sorry for stalling, i'm sorry for getting im the way, i'm sorry for being difficult
i don't know why it's so hard to understand, i've been like this my entire life, and yet you never change. you still act like i don't try. like i don't care. no matter how much i scream and cry and all that dumb shit you still think i don't do anything to help myself
i can't do this alone
i need you
i don't know why i'm this way
i know i shouldn't blame everything on my mental health but i can't think of any other reason why i can't go through with basic tasks
please be patient
please be patient
please be patient
i know you're upset
i know you've been patient already
i just mean in general.
i beg of you to remember that i am a person with thoughts and feelings. really fucked up feelings. you must be patient with me, i am trying my best.
