I'm his Diana, He's my Batman. (Liam Payne fanfic)

Ch. 36

(Liam'a p.o.v.)
*earlier*

Dani and I went into one of the bedrooms to talk. I shut the door not thinking too much at all. It's just gonna be a talk. I know that for sure.

"Liam, how are we gonna do this? I mean I barley get to see Alyssa."

"We will find a way. You can take her for so long you know that. We can do things together too just not all the time.."

"What if I want to though. Liam I am sorry, but I love you. Can you blame me? I have strong feelings for you, and I can't get over them."

"Dani, I understand but I love Katherine. Love can't even explain how I feel about her."

"Rememeber when that was how we were? Why can't you feel that again?"

"I do, just not with you. Look I am so so so sorry things went wrong but I love Katherine."

I don't know what happened but I just know Dani kissed me first and things got a little out of hand. I kinda got lost in the moment and thought about Katherine...
I never meant for this to happen, and I feel so bad. Who knows how I will tell this to Katherine. I don't want to tell this to Katherine.
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Dani has left with Alyssa and Katherine just put Nathan to bed. Katherine was being very quiet and that was a little strange to me. Does she know something?

"Why are you so quiet?"

She shruggs she shoulders and looks at her phone. Is she trying to ignore me? Oh know I hope she doesn't know.

"Is it because of Dani?"

"Nah.."

I know she is lying. Here we go again..

"I can tell you're lying. You won't even look at me!" I start to yell at her.

All of a sudden I just felt mad. I have no idea why..

"I'm looking at you now! Okay, maybe I am lying. Maybe I do get jealous when you're with her because I know you and her had Alyssa and you loved her. Everyone tells me that you should be with Her and not ME."

"You have nothing to worry about!"

"I have nothing to worry about?!?! Any second you could just finally realize that she is better, that you should be with er. Any moment you could walk away from me and fall in love with her again!"

Why am I not comforting her like I should? Why do I keep on fighting? Is it the adrenaline in me? I have no idea but I want it to stop..

"Are you doubting us?" I yell at her again.

"Sorta yeah."

"Wow Katherine, everything we have gone through and you still doubt that I truly love you."

I have never been this mean to her. I have never wanted to say any of this. I don't get why I keep on saying things I don't want to.

The fight gets more heated and I can't seem to stop. I even bring up things that random just to fight with her. I will loose her but my mind and body won't stop. I need it to, I need to apologize, I want to comfort her and explain things. I want to do the total opposite of what I am doing now.

"Myabe the fans are right about you." I tell her.

What did I just say? Shit gonna go down, I swear..

(Katherine's p.o.v.)

"Maybe the fans are right about you." Liam tells me.

I am shocked, he finally found a way to hurt me like no one else has ever before. Liam is just so mad, and I don't get why he is THIS mad.

I just never had anyone tell me this. No one had gotten under my skin and pulled out everything inside of me before like Liam just has. Liam, I guess had enough too and stormed out. I just stood there forzen, like I have done in many of my dreams. I dropped to my knees and cried. I cried harder than I have ever before.

His words sting me and my heart. I feel like it broken and is shattered for good. I hear his voice and everything he had said to me.

"You changed too much." Echoed
inside my head.

I closed my eyes and put my hands over my ears rocking back and fourth.

"GO AWAY THOUGHTS.! GO AWAY!" I screamed.

I thought about what he said though too through my screaming and crying. Maybe I will just change. Go back to how I first was. Shy and never talked.
Nathan woke up crying and I got him but he went back to sleep thankfully. I just want to feel numb. Maybe I can just feel numb, I have gotten hurt enough.
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Liam still hasn't showed up and I decide to call Hannah.

"Hey Hannah, have you or Harry spoke to Liam today..?"

"Yeah why?"

"He isn't here.. he hasn't been for a while." I start crying into the phone.

"What happened? Are you guys okay?"

"He started to fight with me and he said everything I have never wanted to hear."

"What did he say?"

"That the fans are right about me... meaning everything they say to me is true."

"That isn't true. He couldn't have meant it."

"He was so scary when he said it all.."

"Have you tried calling?"

"And texting but he won't answer. I hate it."

"I will call him.."

"Thank you.."

I hang up and continue to cry my heart out. I don't even know what I did. It is probaly my fault though.

I wait for a while to see if Liam will show up but he never does. I go to bed and actually fall asleep. It doesn't last very long either. I get up and I see Liam walking in. I kinda just ingnore him and walk to the belcony door. I almost make it but then he sees me.

"Katherine, I am so sorry."

I shrugg and go outside. I don't want to hear a word from him but at the sametime I do. Ugh I hate myself. I want to be someone else so bad, but also I don't. I hate this! I take off my phone case and find my blade.

Perfect..I cut down without even paying attention and fall alseep on the belcony chair doing so.
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I wake up and I look down at my wrists, another night where I have gone into another world while cutting. Who knows I could have been dead right now. Like Liam would care though..
I walk inside and clean off my wrsits and blade. I put it back into my phone case, get something to eat, grab water, and head back out to the belcony. It's roughly 1:30 in the morning and I am starving. I go to the belcony and eat faster than I have ever before. This helps me grow tired and I fall asleep once again.

(Liam's p.o.v.)

I lay in bed awake, not able to stop thinking. I get up and I see the light is on in the kitchen area. I get confused but them remember Katherine is outside. She was probably thirsty. I go out onto the belcony quietly and I see Katherine is sleeping. I pick her up and bring her inside.
I bring her into the room and I lay her down onto the bed. I cover her up and I feel my chest ache. How come I was so stupid? How could I let anger carry me away like that.

I leave the room and I go into the kitchen area. I hold onto the sink and I start to cry. I am so stupid. What if I loose her? I can't loose her! I can't have this happen.

I fall to the floor and lean against the cabniets under the sink. I lean my head back and cry. I don't know if I will be able to stop crying.