I'm his Diana, He's my Batman. (Liam Payne fanfic)

Ch. 40

(Katherine's p.o.v.)

I ran to the cliff and I sat down on the edge. Louis probably called Liam by now, like they will be able to find me before anything. It takes a while to get here anyways. I wanna be left alone right now.

I mean hearing what Liam was doing, made me feel horrible. Then Louis doesn't let me go in there makes me feel worse again too. It's all my fault. Dang, maybe Liam was right that one day. I do mess everything up.

"Wow, I am just a mess up." I say to myself."

"It's their fault for not letting me go.. or at least not doing something about me when I was little. I could have been long gone, but of course nope.. here I am." I think to myself.

Tears roll down my cheeks and I just had enough of the world, of my thoughts, of everything. Its getting just very painful to just breathe. I don't get how people live like this. It's so damn hard. Am I selfish? I mean all these people suffer and here I am, suffering too but I have all this. I probably don't even have it hard do I ? Maybe I am just a selfish bitch. Wouldn't be a surprise.

Why am I still here though? I have the chance right now. Perfect chance actually. No one is here, or around. This should have happened years ago. I just want to die, but I can't bring myself to put the pills into my mouth.
Why am such a chicken?!?! I have done this like 20 times already, shouldn't this one be no different. What's stopping me? God, this is no fair. I should have done it already!

Right then and there I put the pills in my mouth and swallow them. I feel shaky but I did it. I cut down on my wrists a few more times beofre anything happens. I feel like I really can be succesful tonight. Wouldn't be so bad. For me at least.

I feel tired, which is a good thing, and I just sit there. Emotionless, looking at the sky and everything around me. Such a beautiful place, but such bad people ruined it.

I sit here and wait, I wait for my pain to be over, I wait for the suffering to end, I wait for everything to come to an end. I slow my breathing and lay down with my feet over the cliff. I look up at the sky and count the stars I see. beautiful sight, it really is. This may be my last time to ever see the sky. I'm okay with that I guess..

(Liam's p.o.v.)

*hour later*

We finally got to the cliff and I saw her. I ran to her and I felt very little heart beat, her breathing was barley enough. The pill bottle in her band and the blade in the other hand. I look at her and I feel guilty. Was this because of me? Did I mess up so badly that it hurt her so much, she felt as if she needed to die? All these questions fill my head as I dial the ambulance and I put my head on my knees and I cry.

Niall comes over and then so does the rest. Niall is hurt, and by the look of everyone else... they all seem hurt too. I wait here, which seems like forever, for them to come. I keep checking to make sure Katherine is alive. She barley is, and my breathe is taken away everything I check.

When they arrive, I get so panicked. Niall and Ren hop in the back and I stay behind with Nathan. I swear if she doesn't make this, I will loose it. I can't loose her at all. God, what have I done to her? I ruined her didn't i? God am I horrible...

I keep replaying what happened the past couple days. I was such a horrible person to her that day. How could I have thought that she was really okay after that? I hurt her so bad... and I knew what I was doing. I was trying to hurt her... and I don't get why I had to snap at her and hurt her like that. She probably hates me. I would hate me too. Shit.. I do hate myself for what I did.

I messed up badly and the sad part is that she thinks it's all her fault. I don't think I could have convinced her it was my fault really. She is so stubborn.

(Niall's p.o.v.)

Ren and I jump into the back of the ambulance. I thought this was over, I thought she would never try again, but here we are and she may be actually successful. I don't want this again, I didn't want to be here again in this situation. It's painful, and scary. I may actually loose my daughter...

She had well has so much going for her, she had the talents she just needed to be put out there. She had everything she needed, but yet she had it so hard. I don't blame her for this, but also Im still mad she did. I don't want to be mad but somehow I am.