Tianshan one-shots/fanfics

In the furure...

It killed him to witness this small smile directed at someone else other than him.
This feeling drilled a hole in his heart and from there swam, using his veins, throughout his whole body.
He shook in anger, disappointment and another feeling he couldn't quite name.
A feeling that made him sick to his stomach, that made him sweat and made him want to take out the knife he had bound on his ankle.
He observed every single twitch and movement from the redhead sitting on the bar stool while at the same time looking for any kind of change of expression on guanshans face.
He tian had no right to claim him as his own.
He knew that but still couldn't stop wishing and hoping that the guy who had approached the ginger minutes ago suddenly fell dead from the stool.
He really, really was not in the position to think of guanshan as 'his'.
Really.
He was the one always leaving him after some days spent together.
He was the one constantly backing off when their relationship could get serious.
He was the one who had the "fuck-buddy" idea.
He was the reason ...they couldn't-
He tians knuckles whitened as he formed a fist.
The ravenette put on a smile and joined the two men at the bar.
Silenced by tians presence the short haired men ,whose blue eyes had shone with happiness moments ago, shuddered lightly.
He tian had of course noticed as his lips curled into a malicious grin.
"Oh. You're back from the dead." The ginger spoke in a bored tone.
Guanshan hadn't changed in these 3 months they had been apart, just like the other times he tian had seen him after a long period of time, he seemed very unfazed.
Well, he did get used to seeing tian pop up after months of silence at the most random times and places.
"May I take your position?" Tian whispered with a tint of false playfulness that could also been falsely identified as coquettishness.
The ravenettes hand slid to the mens neck, grabbing him there first lightly, then increasing the pressure.
He felt the strangers muscles twitch and as the men cowered away after muttering his goodbyes.
He tian felt a sudden wave of accomplishment overcome him.
"Shall we go?" He tian smiled and locked eyes with the ginger sitting in front of him.
His loving gaze, unrequited, was to stay that way for a long time.

The feeling he has felt earlier- could it be?
Had it been jealousy?

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This takes place in the future-when tian leaves guanshan for months only to come back for a few days.
Tian loves the ginger dearly but isn't able to deepen their bond due to his work and his status in the mafia-
And guanshan who thinks it's enough to have some great time with tian rather than no time at all keeps it at that, disliking the thought that  he couldn't tell tian that he wishes to have a serious relationship with him because he tian would finally leave him and never again come back....
Oh mama is that angst... I dunno bye
Also- this fucked me up good yo.

Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑) honestly I felt my motherly instincts awaken once i laid my eyes upon tHaT.

*slowly drags herself to bed with thousands of unfinished drafts and a big fluffy blanket*
This bad bitch is ready to sleep.
Fuck exams and studying ahahhahah aha ...
Bye (~_~;)

P.s. I hope you enjoyed this whatever it is.

P.p.s. have a wonderful week

P.p.p.s. the count of Monte Cristo is such a Long big book I Love it but can't seem to finish it...

P.p.p.p.s. I am tired sorry for all the mistakes google translator is my knight in armor (not shining armor cause it's kinda shitty sometimes)

P.p.p.p.p.s. *long sigh*