That's My Boy!💕

~Twenty-Two~

I gently pressed the accept call button and sat down as I shakingly said hello. The nurse on the other end told me that I needed to come into the hospital that the doctor needed to talk to me and that it was too important to converse over the phone. I blinked a few times trying to hold back some tears that were forming in the corner of my eyes, just knowing it was something very wrong with my lil boy. I thanked her as I said I would be right over, and if I needed to bring Johnny with me, but she quickly said not for this consultation, then she hung up. I could sense the emotional anguish she was feeling and I didn't know if I could handle what the doctor was going to tell me.

Kc walked over to me and asked me what the down low was on our son, but I couldn't answer her for I was in an emotional tunnel for the moment. That was until Klayton gave me a wake-up smack and asked what was going on. I shook out of the state I was in and said they wouldn't tell me over the phone and that I needed to get to the hospital for the doctor wanted to have a private consultation with me on Johnny's results. I walked into the bedroom in a daze as I grabbed the keys to my car and stepped over Xristos for he was asleep in the doorway, and told them I would let them know when I found out anything...but Kc and Klayton both said I wasn't going anywhere without them, because if it was as bad as all that I would need them there.  

I shook my head in silence as Klayton gave Johnny a smooch on the forehead and asked him to be good for Shannon while they were gone on business. Johnny gave all of us hugs and said he would, then Shannon picked him up and asked him what he would like to do for fun while the parents were away. Johnny looked around until he found the right movies and pointed at the tv wanting to watch Godzilla movies, that thanks to his crazy ass uncle Klayton he got him obsessed with them just like he was. I was about ready to hop in the driver's seat, but Kc slipped around me and offered to drive because I was a nervous wreck from how the nurse spoke to me about my son.

I pulled my phone out and kept my mom and brothers numbers on insta-dial just in case it was something so terrible that I needed to get a hold of them and tell them to get their butts down here for love and support. Kc drove to the hospital in half the time it would have taken me, and parked under a huge shade tree so the vehicle wouldn't get as hot, then we all slowly and emotionally on the razor's edge wondering what the doctor was going to say was wrong with Johnny. As soon as we walked into the building the nurse escorted us to the main office where the doctor was waiting for us, and the look on his face was like having a thousand needles using my heart as a pin cushion. 

I tried to rush him into telling us, but he kept silent until we all were seated and ready to hear what he had to say. He gave a few deep breaths before he said that the results were not good for Johnny and that he really hated being the bad news bearer, but my son had stage 3 Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia, and that it was imperative that we put our heads together and come up with treatments right away before it went into stage 4, which once it made it to stage 4, there it would be aggressive and fatally terminal. I tried to fathom what the doctor was telling me but I couldn't get past the word CANCER. All my memories of my father rushed thru my head like a freight train and all the loss and pain the family went thru at his passing. I jumped out of the chair and told him very bluntly that I was NOT going to lose my son!

Kc pulled me back down in the seat as she was in full tears, while Klayton was trying to have the clear head and asked the doctor what the best cause of action would be for his nephew and how much of a chance did he have of surviving this thing. The doctor handed him a pamphlet and told us all that Johnny was in medical trouble, but there was always hope if we got to work on fighting it immediately which meant Johnny would have to go thru lumbar punctures, chemo treatments, spinal taps, and numerous oral medications in between those treatments. Then the doctor also added that Johnny was extremely resilient so far to the leukemia and that was a very good sign because it meant that Johnny's immune system was still working hard keeping the effects of the cancer at bay, and that would give them more time to help with the fight.

After the several hours of talking and preparation for Johnny's first appointment I walked out of the hospital with Klayton and Kc and told them I didn't think I could handle losing my son, and if he died I was going to die too, because losing my father to cancer was bad enough but to lose my 3-year-old son would be the last straw. Klayton put me in a bear hug and whispered in my ear that we were not going to lose him, that it wasn't in our nature to give up and admit defeat. Then he grabbed the keys and told both of us that we all were in Johnny's corner fighting it together, and he was going to win his battle, and once Johnny's results come back as cancer free, he was going to host the largest party ever in celebration of the victory. Then he drove us all the way back to Kc's home.

All I wanted to do at that point was lock myself in the bedroom with Johnny and snuggle with him for the rest of the night. But I knew I couldn't do that because I had another terrible thing to do first, which was to call my mom and brothers and tell them the terrible and heartbreaking news that Johnny had a type of child's cancer.