That's My Boy!💕

~Twenty-Four~

My family showed up right after breakfast was made and everyone else was at the table waiting to eat. Johnny seemed like he was doing just fine being all smiles and giggles this morning, but he was so much stronger than I was. I was sitting with my plate of food in front of me but I couldn't even force myself to eat even a lil bit of it, all the worrying I was going thru had my stomach tied up in knots that not even I could get out of. Klayton was telling me to eat when my mom came in the door and holding out her arms for me Xristos ignored the new company and stayed by Klayton's feet wanting him to drop him another piece of bacon. I leaned back in my mommy's arms and told her I wasn't sure I could go thru all this with my lil boy as tears started to form uncontrollably.

Mom held onto me even tighter and told me that we all were going to get thru this together, and her grandbaby was going to be just fine. Then she kissed me on the cheek and went over to Johnny and scooped him up and drowned him in grammy kisses as he squealed and giggled in delight, very happy to see his grandma. Jd stayed in the doorway still full of deep emotion as he looked at Johnny. Costa came in and gave me a big bear hug and told me I needed to eat because starving myself wasn't going to help Johnny any. Then he went over to Klayton and shook hands with him in greeting. Jd did snap out of it for a moment to ask Klayton when he found himself a girlfriend that was so gorgeous. 

Klayton snickered as he wrapped his arms around Shannon protectively and said he didn't find her, she found him thru Kc, as he pointed to Kc that was just walking into the dining room holding a fresh pitcher of tea for my mom and brothers. Costa's eyes popped out when he saw Kc, then he came over to me and asked if she was Johnny's mom and was she single. I looked up at him like he had something broken in his head, and told him that she was going out with me so we both could be with Johnny. But all I could get out of my older brother was him calling me a lucky bastard. 

We all shared a somewhat comical conversation about absolutely nothing important trying to keep everyone in better spirits, but as soon as Klayton looked at his watch and told me it was time for Johnny's appointment, all the happiness I had before was sucked out of me like juice thru a straw with high suction and the tension and deep worry filled up where the happiness used to be. Kc held out her hand to Johnny and asked him to go with her so she could get him some nice clothes to wear for his visit. He very willingly slid out of his chair and went with her to his room. Klayton volunteered to drive us in Kc's SUV that was parked in the back so we all could go for this very important appointment. Shannon pulled out the keys for it from the key box that was hanging in the side of the cabinet in the kitchen next to the front door then she and Klayton both went out to the SUV to get it all ready for use.

By the time Kc came down with Johnny all dressed up nice for his appointment Klayton had everyone else loaded into the SUV except for me, I was waiting on the porch for my son and Kc so we could get in the vehicle together. The trip itself was very quiet and very emotional, but because Johnny was on my lap, I stayed as strong as I could for him because I knew he would need me just as my father did for me, when he had cancer he stayed strong for all of us even in the very end when his body was failing him, his mind was as strong as ever. I wished like hell I had that kind of strength inside me that my father had in him. But I don't know maybe I did, and just didn't realize it and maybe Johnny getting this terrible disease was a test for me just to see if I could endure it and help my son defeat it.

Just when Klayton pulled up in the hospitals parking lot a huge burst of emotional relief shot thru my entire body as if someone very close to me was letting me know that it was going to turn out ok and that I didn't need to worry because someone upstairs was watching over my lil boy and was going to make him all better, as long as we all fought for it and met him halfway. I took a deep breath in as I gave Johnny a playful squeeze and asked him if he was ready to fight this monster that was attacking him from the inside out. Johnny stood up on my lap and said yeah very determined to kick that monsters butt for attacking him. Then as I was carrying him to the front doors he gave his uncle Jd, Klayton, and Costa a hi-five showing his strong and determined attitude. Kc and my mom just gave him a loving smile and I knew they both thought at the same time that Johnny was being just like his crazy daddy(me).

Right, when the nurse saw me and my family enter the hospital wing, she showed us to the chemo treatment area and said we could sit and make ourselves comfortable until the doctor got there, then they would give Johnny his first set of treatments along with his lumbar puncture. I knew that was the one that was going to cause the most pain and trouble for Johnny, so just before that particular procedure, I was going to have to really take his mind off of it while the doctor did that to him I was just hoping that I would be strong enough to handle hearing my lil man crying from the pain without killing the doctors for hurting him.

 After twenty minutes the doctor made it into the room and quickly started with the treatment, Johnny took it better than any grown man could have, and didn't even make one whimper. Then as soon as the two hour chemo drip was over with it was time for the lumbar puncture which that did make my lil man scream and holler for the first 15 to 20 minutes what seemed like an eternity to me but all I could do was hold him close to me and tell him what a good boy he was and how much daddy loved him as I was crying with him. After he was done with that the doctor said he would need to stay there for at least another half hour so he could keep an eye on him to make sure he wasn't attacked by side effects of the treatments, then he would be safe to go back home with us, until the end of next month where he would do the same treatments all over again.