Silent laughter

Power of Hatred part three

*Naruto's POV

I woke up the next morning with my father fussing over me. Every little thing, Getting dress, Brushing my teeth, Eating. He tried to help me with it all until I pushed him away. He left me alone for a few hours allowing me some time to think

'I was prepared to kill them' I thought to myself as I almost threw up at the tought

'If dad didn't stop me they would be...' I thought rushing to the trash can. I stood over it for about 10 minutes before nothing came out any more

"What the hell was I thinking" I yelled to myself in my mind

"You wanted them to pay for what they have done" The nine tails mumbled 

"It was all you. You made me go crazy and almost kill them" I yelled at the beast

"I did not you asked for power and I gave it to you. You asked for the rampage" The nine tails said defending himself

"No your messing with my head" I said curling up into a ball covering my ears to block out the sound

"I enjoy messing with you, but that hate was all you kit" The nine tails said kicking me out of my mind space

'All me' I thought to myself as I got back in bed. A few moments later dad knocked on the door. I got up and opened it for him.

"Naruto can we sit" He asked with a serious look on his face

'oh no' I thought grabbing a chair for him. I sat on my bed as he tossed and turned in the chair trying to get comfortable. There was no way either of us were going to be comfortable with this conversation

"When was the first time the nine tails took influence over you" He asked. I told him about the time in training during my mission to the land of waves.

"Did he just take control or did you let him to save Sasuke" He asked next. That's what I hated most about dad. He alwa.ys seemed to know the answer to the question before I answered it. I nodded my head yes saying that I gave him control. I was crying by this point. not sobbing but a steady stream of tears were coming down both of my cheeks. We sat there in silence until dad found the balls to asked the next question

"Naruto did you want to kill Sasuke" And with that the dam broke. It was like an ocean of tears came out of my eyes as I fell into his arms ashamed at what I have done. He just held me there for a while. He asked no more questions, and said absolutely nothing. When I was finally able to compose myself I sat up and wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Naruto I understand how you feel" Dad said breaking the silence. "The first lead our godfather brought me I was going to run there and kill him myself, but he stopped me saying that when the time come only I could do what I thought was right" He said. There was silence for another moment as I thought about what he just told me

"Naruto did it feel right to kill Sasuke for something he didn't do" He asked me

'No it wasn't right, but it felt so good to let that anger out' I thought. Father stood up startling me. He ruffled my hair, but I was to deep in thought to push him away.

"Sasuke is gone now" Dad said standing in the door way "And only you can help him. He only sees you. Only knows you, and is the only one that could fully understand you Naruto"

'Understand' I thought as I drifted off to sleep

-time skip one week

I was on training grounds seven with Kakashi sensei and Sakura when dad and Jiraiya walked up to us.

"Kakashi can we borrow Naruto for a moment" Dad asked Kakashi

"Of course Minato sensei" He said as I stood up.  over the past week I have recovered well but there was still some uneasiness in my legs and arms. I hobbled over to them

"Naruto Jiraiya wants to take you to mount myoboku to train with the frogs in sage jutsu" Dad said. My eyes lit up with excitement. I have always wanted to learn sage jutsu.

"But you don't have to if you don't want to. Your training will be about a year or more" He said with sorrow in his voice. This still didn't deter me from saying yes. I ran home and packed. I slowed down as I came across a frame of a hand full of pictures. There was one of mom and dad. One of me as a baby, and one of my first day at the academy. I sat on the bed holding the picture. Dad knocked on the door and I looked up at him. He had the biggest fake smile I have ever seen on. I could tell he was sad so I moved over and offered him a seat on the bed. He sat down next to me

"I m going to miss you" He said, an with that I hugged him. We hugged for a long time until we both got antsy. He helped me pack and the next day I was leaving the village with jiraiya.

'Sasuke I will get you back' I thought as I waved bye to everyone 'but to do that I must get stronger'

A/N and break time

sorry for telling everyone that I would update daily but I kept re doing everything I wrote like the fight between Minato and Naruto was redone like 7 time no kidding. So I have hit a little writers block but still have a few Ideas I want to throw out there.

I will be taking a one week break from this story. My other two books (false eyes) and (dying flame) wil both be reworked because I kind of rushed one because I wanted to write this story and the other one I love to OC but the writing is just plain bad, but please check out both of them I will be starting tomorrow with False eyes rework 

and finally thanks to everyone who has supported this book

night y'all see you in one week