Anorexia At It's Finest

"Tradition"

Health class started and of course, Jenny and her group are present.

Thanks, God, you really want to make my life a living, breathing hell.

They keep looking back at me and giggling and whispering and pointing.

Jenny isn't exactly "discreet", with anything. When she slept with Brad, everyone knew about it, when she got to third base with every boy on the football team, everyone knew about it, and of course when she was talking about you, you knew.

I could see the notes passing and hear the giggles. How is it that teachers don't notice this, but if I forget to do one problem on my homework I get detention?

Whatever, I guess.

In health class the teachers have this "tradition" where we watch the safe-sex video on the first day, every single year. I've had to suffer through this awkward, losing your virginity video for 3 years. Happy 4th year! I'm going to fucking puke.

The worst part about this tradition is that every boy decides to wink and wiggle his eyebrows at any girl he wants to screw, lucky for me, I never get perved on. Not only is this bad, but Jenny and her boyfriend take this time to have some "silent" PDA, which consists of loud conspicuous kissing noises and him fingering her.

Seriously how gross can people get?

The movie starts up and immediately it gets awkward as it starts talking about this girl Julie. The movie is basically this girl Julie and her boyfriend, Todd, having safe-sex. In 6th grade I found this helpful, but now I really don't want to suffer through it anymore.

I stopped pretending to watch the movie after 7th grade when I realized the teacher leaves the room and goes to do who-knows-what. So instead I start to focus on everyone.

A boy with dark brown curly hair moves over a seat to start making out with some random cheerleader as Todd walks home with Julie form school. It's basically football players with cheerleaders. Even the nerds have boyfriends and girlfriends, how sad can I get?

Brad rubs the inside of Jenny's thigh while she kisses his neck. I don't see how people think he loves her because it's quite obvious what he uses her for.

I glance from them to the video but then I stop.

Brad is looking straight at me.

He keeps looking at me as him and Jenny start getting into it. I cannot watch this anymore so I walk out of the room to go to the bathroom.

Hall pass in hand I press my back against the wall and slide to the floor.

What the hell was that?

I start to get up when someone else leaves the room.

Oh shit.

"I saw you were missing out on the fun," he says taking a step closer to me.

"No, I wasn't missing out on anything," I take a step backwards.

"Are you sure?" Brad takes a step forward.

"Yes. Now get the fuck away from me."

I start to turn away to enter the girl's bathroom and he grabs my wrist. He pulls me close to him, pushing my hood down, and whispers in my ear, "You're such a virgin, but don't worry, I'll change that."

He walks back into the room leaving me speechless and scared to death.