Anorexia At It's Finest

"DIE BITCH!"

"Cassie, breathe, you need to breathe, everything is going to be okay," I hear past the pounding of my obnoxious heart.

Shut the fuck up heart someone actually wants to talk to me!

I feel someone rubbing my back.

Right now the voice is God.

God, why do you choose now to speak to me?!

I slowly roll my eyes to the side to match the voice to the body. A sharp pain emerges from my stomach, but I see God is actually Kaden.

The whole day comes back to me as I lie in the same bush Kaden pushed me into yesterday. Except it's not yesterday.

Jenny.

Brad.

Lunch.

Everything.

My eyes dart side to side like fish to food.

Who else is here?

Ignoring the pain, I get up and fix my skirt. I give Kaden a nod like everything is okay, then I run.

I run as fast as I can, as far as I can get. Breathing doesn't come easy, but all I can focus on is getting away.

From what, I can't seem to comprehend, but all my knowledge consists of at the moment is the mere thought of disappearing from the face of the Earth.

I locate myself in the park.

How the hell did I get here?

I take deep breaths.

In out, wait no, out in, in in, out in out, out out, what do I fucking do?! Damn trees I see you! You cannot deceive me Barbra! I know you are making that fine ass oxygen and keeping it all to give to Juan, well I know you!

I place my butt under a tall, winding tree.

What the hell? Why did I call this tree Barbra? Oh Barbra stop it! You know I do enjoy a good pun! Shit stop

I cannot place my pale finger on where to begin in my thought process.

Okay Cass, what happened?

I close my eyes and start from after Kaden said goodbye...

"I'll see you after class, Cassie!"

"Okay, bye Kaden!"

"You really think he could ever like you, you fat pig?!"

"Jenny."

"The one and only, just not your one and only, Kadey's!"

"Kaden is dating you?"

"Well duh bitch, he likes thin girls, unlike you. Right Kadey?"

"Uh...yeah"

"Kade...wow..."

My eyes snap apart. This is too much for me to handle.

Focus Cassie.

My eyes ease back to closed...

"Hey Baby."

"Go fuck Jenny, Brad."

"I want you, you're a challenge, you're what I get off on."

"That's vile, now leave me alone!"

"Jenny isn't dating Kaddy or whatever the freak's name is."

"Okay?"

"He wants you, not as much as I do. I want to come inside of you and make you-"

"STOP!"

"Cassie, think about my offer..."

"Don't kiss my neck!"

I massage my temples in defeat.

I'll save the rest of this horrid memory process for later I suppose.

I slide my back up straight against the tree.

Time to go home.

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Lying in the tub is when I do my best thinking. Most people do there bed thinking on the toilet, but the toilet is simply a porcelain throne, nothing more, nothing less.

I splash the hot water on my shivering arms. The once retained goosebumps appear to my dismay.

Okay what happened next?

My eyes flutter close.

"You're eating that?!"

"Yeah..."

"You took more than five pieces or lettuce, if you add death dressing you'll surely die."

"I cannot form the 'death' part of the dressing..."

"YOU ARE SUCH A FAT WHORE!"

"Ahh here is your queen little followers."

"TRYING TO STEAL MY BOYFRIEND AND KADE IS NOT ACCEPTABLE!"

"I'm going to enjoy my lovely non-death salad..."

"BITCH IF YOU TAKE ONE MORE STEP I WILL BEAT THE SHIT OUT OR YOU!"

"I really should get to lunc-"

"DIE BITCH!"

The fight. That's when the fight started. We clawed and punched and I .swear I bit her arm. She wanted to give me "what I deserve".

What I fucking deserve is some more ramen, pronto

And then after the fight she dragged my body outside and her whole gang beat me. Then...Kade saved me.

You little shit, you ran away from your knight.

I run my fingers through my tangled, damp hair.

What am I going to do?

"Open the goddman door, before I break it down!"

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¡DOUBLE UPDATE! *hands you a sombrero* Okay I forgot to talk about careless careless...its obviously a fake band and I mean I can try to come up with some songs or idk, I'll decide later.

Happy happy double update!

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And if they didn't...

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