Anorexia At It's Finest

"This Is Perfect."

Cassie's POV

Maria eventually drives us home after the doctors tranquilize Luke.

The car ride is filled with Maria and Jonathan laughing along with Kade as they talk about when they traveled to Bermuda.

I stare out the window in silence.

I can't believe I saw Derick. It's been 2 years since what happened and I still can barely breathe when I close my eyes. Yes I know, "Eighth grade love means nothing," but with him it felt real, even when he tried to have his way with me. It all felt real.

Maria pulls into the driveway and screams, "We're home!"

I walk quickly up the steps and make a detour to Luke's room.

"Cassie? Where are you going?"

"I...I think I'm going to sleep in Luke's room tonight," I say and continue walking to his room.

"Okay... Would you like me to sleep there too?"

"I'm fine."

I enter his bedroom and immediately smell his cologne.

I've never really noticed all of this...

Posters cover the left side completely, not leaving a single inch of wall to see. The other side is completely blank and has his dresser and bed pressed to it.

I pull one of his shirts out of his hamper and grab a clean pair of his boxers.

Just like last time...

I climb into his ginormous bed and look up at the ceiling.

What the hell?

Kade's POV

"That stupid prick thinks he can take Cassie like he does with every girl? Not in a million years! I'll kill him!" I say, throwing darts at the picture of Luke on the board.

I remove the darts from his face and walk back to my place. Squishing my feet tightly on on the soft, white carpet of the game room, I reclaim my stance.

"And he thinks he's SOOO tough! Just because you hit puberty when you were fucking eight, DOESN'T make you're better than everyone!" I throw three more darts, missing the board completely.

"And what about that stupid car you have?! Just because you paid for it with your own money, doesn't mean you're a god!"

I throw dart after dart into his face until every ounce of anger is out.

"At least he's in the hospital for now."

Luke's POV

"Thanks for visiting."

"I wouldn't miss it for the world."

"You didn't have to come."

"I missed you."

"Missed me? I'm the one who left."

"Exactly."

"Got any 3's?"

"Go fish."

Cassie's POV

I try to open the latch on his ceiling, but it's locked.

"Come on, open, little door, I just want to know what's behind you..."

I try to pry my fingers under it, but it just won't budge.

Maybe there's a key...

I scan the room.

Wait. Stop being so nosy, this is Luke's room.

I hear a knock at the door.

SHIT.

I fall back into the bed and throw the comforter over me.

Yep. I've been sleeping for HOURS.

"Hey, Cassie?"

I fake yawn, "Hm?"

"Goodnight," he says closing the door.

I wait for the sound of his bedroom door shutting to take out my laptop.

English project time.

I open my laptop and place it in front of me, opening my journal on my thigh.

[134 lbs, last time I checked. Four more until goal. I think my goal should change, Maria bought me lingerie and I'm pretty sure she expects me to wear it. But my fat seeps out so....

New goal: 120 lbs

Tips for quick weight loss: ]

I pause and tap my pen against my lips in thought.

I don't know any tips...

I open my laptop and enter google, typing in 'tips on losing weight quickly'.

Tons and tons of websites and search results flood my vision and I tap on a random one

"Ana and Mia?"

I keep reading and my stomach grumbles in hunger.

This is perfect.

Luke's POV

"I think you should go home."

"Why?"

"Because you have school tomorrow."

"I want to stay with you."

"I want you to leave me alone."

"Luke....I love you."

"Go."

Cassie's POV

[ (continuation)
Tips for quick weight loss:
ANArexia
buliMIA ]

I close my journal exactly when Kade bursts through the door. He throws a black sweatshirt at me.

"We're going to see a movie. I don't care which one, but we're going to see one."

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Okay update yay! I'm trying to update every other day and it seems to be working!

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I promise to keep up with updates!

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