Desire ♡ Jungkook/Reader FF ♡ Completed ♡

Jungkook's Ending (1/6)

Y/N's POV

One week later.

I took seven days away from work, used some of my vacation time which Jin didn't question. I text both him and Jungkook, told them to give me some time and space to decide what my true feelings were. I was impressed with them, they both understood my need for distance and never tried to call or show up at my apartment.

I spent time talking with Namjoon, got his advice and support but it wasn't his decision to make. I needed do to this alone and nobody could make my mind up for me, this was mine to deal with and now it was clear to me what my decision should be.

I love Jin, he's been there for me through so much and I don't regret a single moment of our time together but it was clear to me the moment Jungkook returned that my heart was always with him. I loved Jin but....I was In love with Jungkook. Yes, there was a slight age difference between the two of us and at times he could be so damn stubborn and reckless but the thought of someone else having him drives me crazy with jealousy whereas the thought of Jin moving on and finding someone else doesn't.

I believe that if Jungkook hadn't come home things might've ended differently, maybe in time my love for Jin would've grown and strengthened but to me that doesn't sound right.....the love needs to be there already and not forced.

Jin was my best friend, he was a support to me through a deeply troubling time and of course a part of me will miss him but it's not fair to do this anymore. I never intended to hurt him, I never wanted this to happen but like life love isn't perfect and everyone is flawed, we all make mistakes. I would never call my relationship with Jin a mistake though, it was what we both needed at the time but unfortunately for me it's not where my future lies. I feel guilty, I know this will be difficult for him but he deserves the truth and he'll get that today.

I was angry with him for betraying me, for acting in such a devious manner and getting rid of his brother so he could have his chance with me but I couldn't stay mad at him forever. Jin wasn't innocent in all this but the same could also be said for myself and Jungkook....I never should've really entered a relationship with Jin knowing my feelings for his brother and Jungkook never should've walked away and cut me out of his life for almost a year.

I was standing outside Jin's office, I knew Jungkook was busy with meetings in Shanghai and wouldn't be back for another two days so now was the perfect time for me to finally settle everything with Jin.

He must've been watching me on the security system as suddenly the door swung open and he greeted me with a nervous smile, the guilt was already eating away at me.

"Fuck....I've missed you Princess. Please tell me that you forgive me, I haven't been coping well. I feel so guilty for what I did, I'm so sorry." He grabbed my wrist and pulled me though the door, once it was closed he cupped my face.

"Jin....you need to listen." I gently moved away, I didn't want to upset him by yanking myself from his grasp only then to deliver the harsh news about my decision.

"Do you want a drink? I can send for some tea?" The tone of his voice and the way his brow furrowed when I moved away from him was all it took for me to know he was upset by my actions. I shook my head and smiled, in all honesty I couldn't stomach anything right now.

"I'm good thanks, I just came to talk. I.....maybe you should sit before I start." I settled myself down on the couch adjacent to his desk.

"I can't sit, you know I can't sit when I'm nervous." He leaned against his desk, legs crossed at the ankles as he pushed his hands inside the pockets of his black slacks. I chuckled, he never could sit still when he was stressed out and Jungkook shared that trait with him.