What Hurts The Most (Lacrosse Villavista Series #2)

Chapter 06

Chapter 06

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Actually, my debts with Stan were already paid. Nung nagbabayad ako sa kaniya ay bigla siyang umayaw at sinabi niya pa na huwag na. Okay lang na sa akin na lang 'yon. Ipunin ko na lang ang mga binibigay niya.

In my weeks with Stan, I became more confused because of my feelings. I still love Tristan but when Stan is around my heart doesn't stop from beating too fast. I don't want to think that I fell in love with him, hindi puwede.

I don't want to involve the solemn life of Stan to my mess life. Kahit pagbali baliktarin ko ang mundo. We're not perfect for each other. I don't want to fall in love again.

Love is to talk shit. Love can kill you in any form.

"Kanina ka pa tulala, what's happening on you?" Clarisle asked me.

We're walking on the long way of supermarket. Napagdesisyunan niya na tulungan ko siyang maggrocery kaya pumayag naman ako. Wala na raw stock ang condo niya kaya siya na ang magpro-provide para sa'kin.

I rejected her offer but in the end, I lost.

Umiling ako, "W-Wala, just tired."

Tired of everything.

Clarisle and Vanz have said to me keeps on popping in my head. Paano kung naglalaro nga lang talaga ng feelings si Stan? Paano kung wala talaga siyang balak magseryoso? Paano kung pinaglalaruan niya lang ako dahil madali akong mauto?

"Yes. Let's say you're tired. Emotionally tired also, right?"

"Clarisle..."

While pushing the cart, Clarisle paused. Tumingin siya sa'kin at parang sinusuri ako. Nakakunot ang noo niya at nagcrossed arms sa harapan ko.

"Problem?"

Tumalikod siya para kumuha ng iilang noodles at nilagay muli sa cart. Pinanood ko lang siya habang kumukuha ng mga pagkain at nilalagay sa cart.

She paused and faced me again. "What's going on you? You're being weird,"

"W-What if... I fell in love again?" I stuttured.

Kumunot ang noo niya kahit ako ay hindi ko alam kung bakit ko natanong sa kaniya iyon. Alam kong magagalit siya sa'kin dahil she warned me, hindi siya nagkulang ng paalala sa'kin.

"What, wait, with whom, Raea?"

Stan is kind. Hindi malabong walang mahulog ang loob sa kaniya. Kahit ilang linggo ko pa lang siyang kilala ay masasabi kong walang araw na hindi siya naging mabuti sa'kin.

He always wants the best for me. He was always protecting me, he became my best friend.

"C-Clarisle... I just want to ask... W-What if I fell in love again?"

Stan.

Ilang linggo kong pinigilan ang sarili ko dahil alam kong mahal ko pa si Tristan. Ilang linggo kong sinabi sa sarili ko na kahit kailan ay hinding hindi kami puwede ni Stan. Sa nakikita ko sa kaniya, mga babae niya lang ang main focus niya.

"Then, I don't have any rights to stop your feelings. If you fall in love, then be it."

I smiled. I pushed the cart again while I was scanning the whole grocery store. Maraming tao pero ayos lang dahil mukhang hindi pa namin nakakalahati ang cart.

I did not, hindi ako puwedeng mainlove ulit. Once is enough. Hindi ko puwedeng kalimutan na 'yun ang naging dahilan kung bakit ako mag isa ngayon. Kung bakit ako tinaboy.

"Huwag lang si Stan, Raea." She added, "Nakasama na namin siya ng minsan sa bar. He has a lot of girls. Kung sinu-sino ang mga nilalandi. You're too precious fragile for him. He will just hurt you."