Married to be Fooled

Pang-Limangpu't Dalawa

Chazekio's P.o.V

Shamie calmed down but still stayed quite, i don't know what to say to her or do i even have anything to say. I never meant to shout at Kasper, but my emotions interfered and I've said hurtful things to her.again. I knew that i love her but I can't just abandon Shamie, she worked hard trying to save our relationship for the past one and a half year. I love Kasper but Shamie needs me, she returned for me and that's all that matters for now

" Chazekio " my train of thoughts stopped immediately when i heard Shamie call my name, I didn't say anything and waited for her to talk. I'm so torn right now, I don't want to be unfair so I'm choosing Shamie over Kasper, Kasper can keep my heart with her

" Tell me, Chazekio. Do you love,Lime? please be honest with me this time, you know that I hate liars " I feel like there's something in my throat stopping me from talking. I don't know what to say, I don't want to lie but i don't want to hurt her either. She don't deserve any pain

" Chazekio, I'm not mad that you fell in love with her, I'm not mad that you don't love me anymore, what I'm mad about is that you didn't tell me, you should've told me earlier. Ang ayoko sa lahat ay yung may nasasaktan akong tao, alam mo yan. Sana sinabi mo kaagad sakin na mas mahal mo na sya. Chazekio hindi ako magagalit, hindi kita pipigilan, hindi ko pipigilan na maging masaya ka mas gugutuhin ko pang kay Lime ka mapunta kasi sya yung makakapagpasaya sayo. Si Lime, mabuti syang tao at mahal na mahal ka nya hindi nya deserve na masaktan dahil sakin, kahit isang beses hindi nya ko pinakitaan ng masama. Ilang beses ko syang nasaktan pero hindi sya nagalit sakin, ni tingnan ng masama hindi nya ginawa. Kanina, muntik na kaming malunod, and that's my fault. Kinapitan ko sya para lang mailigtas ang sarili ko, nasipa ko pa ang hita nya kaya muntik na syang malunod pero hindi sya nagalit sakin, hindi nya ko sinigawan, hindi nya ko minura, ni hindi nya ko tiningnan ng masama. Chazekio don't settle for less, Lime is the best person I've ever known and you're lucky enough to have her. Don't let her slip away. Don't mind me, I still can find the one for me but you, the one for you is already in your hands but all you do is hurt her. Chazekio, wag mong hintaying magsisi ka. tandaan mo, laging nasa huli ang pagsisisi " I was taken aback with what Shamie just said. I didn't thought she would accept everything this easily.

" Shamie...I-I... " I can't seem to find any words to say. I'm so fucking stupid, fuck

" It's okay,Chazekio. You can control everything in your body but not your heart, it has it's own decisions. Besides, Lime's a great woman that everyone could fall in love with her easily. Go where your heart lives, Chazekio. Go and claim what's yours " I could feel her sincerity, her smile is so genuine that I know she's telling the truth. I smiled at her and hugged her before running out. fuck, I'm so fucking stupid! fuck it!

I didn't think things through and just made a fucking decision, I belittled Shamie and her kindness that led to this fucking situation. I'm so fucking stupid, I promised Kasper that I wouldn't hurt her again yet I did it again. fuck I'm so stupid. I'm so fucking stupid damn!

I've been searching the whole place but to my dismay, I couldn't seem to find her. I'm not really sure if they're still here or they've already decided to go home.

With a heavy heart, I decided to go home. I'll find her, I'll do everything to get her forgiveness. i can't live without her and i'm so stupid realizing it so late

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flashback

I went straight home after my class, I'm not in the mood to fuck some whore right now and besides, I still have to know who Chaoseno's bride will be. I have to make sure she'll fall inlove with me before their marriage

" Chazekio, sweety! you're early! is your class done already? " mom asked, i nodded my head sitting beside her. they're rarely here so it's surprising

" you don't have any business trip now, mom? " i asked, not complaining tho. i like it better when they're here, the house feels more alive, with the help of my little sister Chesseneko

" We have but we're postponing it for now, we're meeting Liel, our good friend " she explained and i just nodded my head. I'm not really into their business so i'm not interested who they're meeting

" His daughter will be your brothers wife, her name is Lime Kasper, beautiful isn't it? her name suits her perfectly " moms last statement poked my attention, who knew fate would help me?

" Chaoseno's fiancé? do you have her picture with you mom? " i asked, not making my intention obvious. I have to make sure mom wouldn't know my plans

Mom took something from her bag, its a picture. she handed it to me and fuck. she's, she's....unreal? i don't know, i'm not into compliments and i don't know how to put her into words. but for a second, i felt fascinated, this is the second time i'm stunned by a womans visual.

she looks so unreal. she's beautiful but, lifeless? i'm not sure but i can't see any emotion in her eyes, she's smiling but it's weak. she looks like she wants to be saved. fuck. this is just a damn photo but i felt...emotions? i don't know fuck it

" Chazekio? " i was dragged back to reality when mom poked me, i looked at her

" M-Mom, I...I'll marry her "

" What? are you being serious, Chazekio? " she asked and i absent mindedly nodded my head

" Yes, Mom. I know her and she likes me " I lied.

" Really? alright then, I'll tell your dad about it. Rest for now, Sweety " she said and stood up. I just watched her walk away. fuck, what did i get myself into?

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Natagpuan na lang ni Chaze ang sarili na nakatayo sa labas ng St.Escolastica, nagawa nyang malaman kung saan nag-aaral si Lime sa pamamagitan ng kanyang mama. mukhang marami itong alam tungkol kay Lime

Ilang oras na din s'yang nakatayo sa gilid ng gate, ilang estudyante na din ang naglabas pasok makapag-papansin lang sakanya pero para bang wala s'yang nakikita. masyado s'yang focus sa gate, binabantayan ang paglabas ni Lime.

Napalingon s'ya nang maramdaman ang presensya sa gilid nya, nilingon nya ito at napansin ang isang babae. mukhang estudyante ito ng St. Escolastica dahil sa unipormeng suot. hapit iyon sa katawan nya at nakabukas ang unang dalawang butones, dahilan para sumilip ang kanyang malusog na dibdib. napalunok si Chaze ng mas lumapit pa ito sakanya, naramdaman nya ang pagsayad ng dibdib nito sa kaliwang braso nya.

Goddamnit! sigaw nya sa kanyang isipan, ngumiti ito ng pagkatamis-tamis saka kumapit sa braso nya " I'm Perry, you're? "

" Chaze " nakangising pakilala nya. dahil abala sa pakikipag-usap sa babaeng kaharap, hindi nya namalayang dumaan na si Lime kasama ang dalawang kaibigan nito. Tumingin pa ito sa direksyon nya ng ilang segundo bago nagpatuloy sa paglalakad.

Nang matapos sa pakikipagusap si Chaze ay pareho silang sumakay ng babae sa sasakyan nya at mabilis nya itong pinatakbo patungo sa kung saan .