The Coalition of Sierra J. Rubenstein

Against the Whole World (AWW) I:

    This section starts in February of 2015. Remember I was in a dark place at this time in my life. I'm going to begin this section with one Saturday night. I was sitting alone in my parents basement upset after another miserable day of bowling. I began to drink while watching tv. I'm not proud how deep I was, but it was enough to give me liquid courage and message Sierra. I let her have it. I told her how I did not appreciate the flirting she did behind Danny's back with me, I hated all their fighting, how I hated that they brought me into every argument, why she would just stop texting me for no reason in a conversation, how I do not want to be their friend anymore because of how they acted. I finally asked her why she put me through all this? She responded very vaguely say something along the lines of, "I know someone that likes you". I was very much out of it. I asked her if she was trying to hook me up with another bowler in our league. In my defense, her response was incredibly vague. At a few points between last season and the current one, Sierra had tried for me to talk and sit with this other bowler in what I saw as an attempt to have a couple to be friends with. It's not like I have not spoken to her privately, it was just that she was not a person I can see myself dating. She has never had a long relationship from the knowledge I knew about her today. Sierra eventually told me she liked me, she had always liked me. I told her I had feelings for her, but I was just a depressing mess. One thing led to another and I asked her out. I told her that if she broke things off with Danny, that I would go out with her; if not, that conversation would be as far as we would go. She promised she would before the set date of Valentine's Day. I picked that day because I really was not free any other weekend. I had a lot of classwork and family matters to attend to. Before I signed off for the night, Sierra asked me if I would remember this night? I told her we would find out...and that was the first thing she asked me the next day. I could not forget it even if I tried.
    So we went on our first date. We decided to go workout at the Glen Burnie Planet Fitness. I agree that the date was unusual, but we enjoyed our time while committing to an active lifestyle. The thing bothering me before the date was her mother was tagging along. Sierra made it sound like her mother would workout with us. I was close to telling her that we need to reschedule for another time. Turned out that her mom did not have a license yet and needed a ride home. Her mother went shopping while we worked out. I thought the date went well, we were sweaty and tired by the end. Before we parted for the day, Sierra told me to meet her at the Party City across the parking lot. She told that she never said that to me, but she followed me over there. I noticed her mom was glaring me down from Sierra's car. At the time, I thought her mother did not like me for kissing her daughter. What I thought would change over the course of a few years. After we kissed and exchanged candy hearts, we left knowing that we would soon be on another date.
    For what most people would think that everything was going well for us at the beginning of our relationship. We had a charming date, enjoyed talking with one another, and we were eager to continue going out. Before I continue on with where I'm actually going with the rest of this work, I would like to make a note for the reader to hopefully better understand how the future events took place. This is the point in time to know that there is a sense of a split narrative in depicting our relationship. I will state what happened from my point of view as well as a varying perspective look on our relationship. I'm doing this to keep the most accurate depiction of what happened. Any ways; before our date even occurred, I made Sierra promise to break things off with Danny. What I recently found out was that Sierra did not break up with him. He even knew about us going to workout. Honestly he should have done something knowing we were hanging out in Valentine's Day. Granted, Sierra did tell him that we would just hangout as friends. I started realizing after our date that she broke her promise to me. This did not happen until a few days later. I was playing video games with my brother when I started receiving messages from both Sierra and Danny. Sierra kept complaining how Danny was being weird about the break up and was just hysterical. A minute later Danny started messaging me that he did not understand what was going on between me and her. To warned me to be cautious of her and to help him understand what was going on. I vaguely replied that she spoke to him about us and I did not understand why he was not comprehending things. Some of our conflict here could have been avoided if either me or Danny were not so vague with our statements. Sierra told both of us two different things. I thought he just could not handle the break up. It was true, but she never said anything on it. They never met for Valentines Day. I was too caught up in being in a relationship to care about what Danny was going through. I was blind to other's needs and finally focused on myself.