ROSES ✔️

First step to new beginnings

"I'll totally miss you that's for sure"

Richard was the most emotional here, second to my mother whose wiping her face with handkerchief due to her soaking tears. Meanwhile, my brothers just look at me, like I was some stranger they never met, while my sister, still innocently smiling at everyone unbeknownst to the stifling atmosphere.

It hurts my heart and although I willed and propped myself for this upcoming journey, I could still feel the moistness of my eyes. Heaving a big breath I tried to stop the tears from falling, not wanting to land a somewhat loser impression on them.

"Just call us if something happen okay? Don't worry about the pay, we got it covered up"

My mom, whom I still feel dissapointed to, tried to comfort me by her words. But what will happen if  I tell them, will they believe me? Believe this addicted teenager whose a problem to their family, trying to slander his own uncle?

They must be joking.

But I didn't linger on that instead face her one more time. I put my arms around her and instantly I was crushed in a warm big hug that made the two of us teared up. I couldn't help it, the tears that I willed myself not to land just flowed down my face naturally.

It's been so long since I hug my mom.

I've always dreamed of this, this time when all of us where happy and my family decided to believe me, telling me they love me. But reality slaps you in the face, hard. But her hug compared to my dream was nothing like I imagined at all, and for a moment I wanted to stay at her arms.

I eventually loosen up my hold on her, bowing my head making my hair cascade like a waterfalls to shield my unwilling face. I started to walk at the car and look at then in the window for the last time. It feels like I'm in the other part of the world while they are in their own world. Separated only by the thin window shield of a car. The car immediately runs and only the smoke of it lingers through the road.

I have been sitting for hours, without taking a glance at my father. I didn't want to make this trip more tense and stifling as it is. Instead I just listened to music through my earphones, the song Smile by Avril Lavigne blaring through my eardrums, my hands tapping on my thighs as I willed myself to smile.

"Are we there yet?"

I broke the peace we have insured unconsciously as I ask him the question I've been wanting to ask. He looks at me while I gaze at the center of his eyes, not bearing the intensity of his gaze.

"Well be there in approximately....2 hours from now"

He return back to driving while I sat here, contemplating if I should break and have a talk with him for the last time. But I was too much of a coward, so I didn't.

The terrains have changed and the usual apartment complex and the busy driveway roads were now full of trees. The sign Welcome to Misty Falls came through as we immediately pass on it. The place is too quiet, peaceful of I might say. The out sounds we're the wind blowing to the trees while it sways alongside the wind. The chirps of the birds and the emerging deer that immediately run back the forest was the only sound I can hear. No more honking cars, shouts and curses of people while they wait for the traffic and no more city.

We drove past the school and I knew that I'll be enrolling there, it might be hard for me because I'm used to being alone. The thought of introducing myself again surfaces on my mind as I fought the urge to punch something.

The car stopped in front of the house that's similar to other houses we've seen. Hmm...it must be a village of sort. I could see the silhouette of two figured, one holding into a stick while the other one is straightening it's back.

It must be them.

Suddenly, the courage I've build up for years crumbled down as soon as I open the car. I could feel the tips of my hand freezing as I tried to shout in my mind to move. I must not show them I'm afraid, yes, I've don't this facade of mine a lot. So what's the problem?

"Don't worry. They might look hard and strict outside, the truth is that they're a softie in the inside"

My father must sense my conflict, feeling warm at his way of making me feel okay I send him my first smile. I could see him widening his eyes because for the first time, her daughter smiled at her. Not the mocking type, and the sneering type but the fact that her daughter doesn't give any emotions even a hint of happiness made him think.

How much change has her daughter experience. How much change has her daughter have that he didn't even realize that she's still her princess, the little naive girl who always depend on her, giving him puppy dog eyes everytime she wants ice cream. She changed so much and he haven't even spare a glance at her, too much pride and anger cloud his mind.

I didn't see my father's conflicting emotions, instead I breathe a lungful of air and step out, walking to my new life.

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Hey guys!!!

It's been raining here like crazy for the last two days🌧️🌧️☔☔

And guess what? We don't have classes today. Yehey!!!

Anyways I hope you like this new chapter of mine. Oh! Stay tuned to😂😂

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