Together is enough // phanfiction

Part 14

*Trigger warning*: This part contains sexual assault being described explicitly

Phil

Phil woke up with a head full of regret. He felt so stupid and childish. Dan must think he is such an idiot. Worse part is Phil didn't mean to stop Dan, he loved the way he made him feel. No one had ever payed such special attention to him. But in the moment he felt so overwhelmed he felt like he was gonna explode. He felt like punching himself now looking back, he ruined the entire moment, maybe even the entire friendship.

Just the memory of Dan's hand in his hand made him shiver. When he closed his eyes he could actually still feel Dan's lips on the back of his hand. It was a perfect moment, on a perfect location and then he had to go and fuck it up. He hated himself for it. And he knew Dan hated him too.

Dan

Dan stood by his locker grabbing the books he needed. He lingered a little longer than he had to, scared to run in to Phil. They hadn't talked about what happened yet and Dan felt as embarrassed as he did yesterday. After Dan got everything he needed he closed his locker and he was startled by Phil who was standing behind the door.

"Hi." he said. Dan felt himself turning red. There is something about being rejected that kicks someones self esteem so far down. "Hi." Dan whispered, "you scared me." 

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." Phil smiled, his beautiful smile. Dan looked down, gathering the courage to speak, but Phil beat him to it. "I'm sorry for yesterday." Wait, he was apologizing? I should be apologizing! "You're sorry? For what?" "For being rude, just walking away like that, it was stupid." Phil looked genuinely sorry. "No, you don't have to apologize! I was way out of line, that was really not cool what I did."

Phil laughed and shook his head. "I'm sorry you feel that way, I thought it was pretty cool to be honest." Dan didn't understand what was going on. Phil rejected him and now he was apologizing? What the hell?

"If you thought that than why did you... you know..." Phil shrugged, "I got scared, I'd never hold hands with anyone before. I was just overwhelmed and I panicked. I wish I could take it back." Dan shook his head, "You didn't do anything wrong Phil, it's a good thing that you showed your boundaries, I shouldn't have assumed that I could just..." Phil put his hand over Dan's mouth, "It's okay Dan, really, it felt... really nice." he slowly lowered his hand.

Dan smiled. "So we're good?" "More than good." Phil said before pulling Dan into a hug. Dan put his hands on Phil's back softly remembering his wounds. While hugging Dan looked into the hallway seeing Spencer standing on the other side looking at them. Quickly Dan pulled back. "Let's go to class okay?" He said. 

Dan's last class that day was gym class. He waited until everyone had left before showering. He was way too self conscious plus he didn't want anyone to see his bruises. After showering he put on his boxers and jeans first. While he was tying his shoelaces his curly wet hair fell in front of his eyes. He got up to grab his shirt but he was startled by someone entering the changing room. 

Spencer.

Dan's heart started to pound in his chest. "What do you want?" Dan tried not to sound scared, but he was. Spencer walked closer to him, "So are you dating that Lester guy?" Dan squinted his eyes, "Why the hell do you care?" Dan took a step back. "Just asking, he seemed pretty straight when he was checking out my girlfriend a few days ago." Spencer got even more close than before.

"Yeah? You looked pretty straight while making out with her, I bet." Dan scoffed, he tried to remain calm but it became harder with the second. "Don't push me Dan." he said while pushing Dan backwards to his back came against the wall. Ironic. Spencer's eyes went down to Dan's stomach, which was now a weird yellow and green color.

"I want us to get back together." Spencer whispered. Dan started to laugh, "You're kidding right? You are fucking kidding me?!" This triggered Spencer as he stepped real close to Dan, locking him against the wall. "I'm not kidding... I..." the anger left his face and he loosened his grip on Dan. 

"I love you Dan." he said softly.

Dan didn't know if he should laugh or cry. What the hell was going on here. Dan tried to step forward and get past Spencer. This resulted in Spencer grabbing him again and shoving him back, rougher than the last time. Dan started to really freak out now. Spencer got really close to his face.

"I really love you..." he whispered again. He paused. Suddenly he pressed his lips against Dan's with force and held them there for a few seconds.  When he backed up Dan screamed out: "What the hell is your problem?! Let me go!" He tried to escape the grip Spencer had on him but he was not nearly strong enough. 

Spencer put Dan's arms above his head and grabbed both of his wrist with one hand, pressing them against the wall. He pushed his knees into Dan's thighs, making it impossible for him to move his legs. "Spencer, cut it out, let me go!" Dan's voice cracked as he tried to escape once more. 

Spencer got his face really close trying to kiss Dan again but Dan moved his head to the side, against his own arm. Spencer kissed Dan's neck multiple times. "Spencer stop!" Dan tried with all the power in his body to move but Spencer had complete control over him. With his free hand Spencer ran down Dan's chest, breathing into his neck. 

"Spencer please..." Dan closed his eyes as he felt Spencer's hand go all over his body, "Spencer please don't." Dan felt tears rolling down his cheeks.

Spencer started to grind into Dan's hips, kissing his neck again. Tears were now streaming down Dan's face uncontrollably as he felt Spencer's boner thrusting against his jeans. Spencer started to pant right next to Dan's ear, as he picked up the pace. "Spencer..." Dan stopped trying to escape,  Spencer was way too strong for him. "Spencer please stop." he said while sobbing.

This went on for minutes long. Dan kept repeating himself, but Spencer didn't listen to him. It felt like years for Dan, but after a while Spencer's body started to shake and he let out a loud moan as he squeezed Dan's wrist with one hand and scratched his chest with the other.

Spencer's breath slowed down after a few seconds and he pulled his head back, looking at Dan's face again. Dan still had his eyes closed, crying and whimpering. Suddenly he felt the grip on his wrists and legs disappearing and he slowly opened his eyes. Spencer was looking at him, like he just woke up from a nightmare. "Dan, I'm so sorry." He raised his hand towards Dan's face. 

"Don't touch me!" Dan cried out while slapping his hand away.

"What the hell is going on here?!" The door slammed open.