Part 28

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Dan

The loud beeping of his alarm woke Dan up. With a loud grunt he swung his arm on top of the off button and pulled the covers over his head. A migraine. Great. With a sigh he got up out of bed and walked to the bathroom.

In the bathroom mirror he inspected his bruises on his stomach and on his face. This was one of the worst beat-ups he had ever had he was convinced. But Phil's care actually helped a lot, usually they were blue and purple for the first week but they were already some green tints in there and it wasn't swollen at all.

His temple was a little swollen though, Dennis punched him pretty hard. The scratches on the other side of his face weren't that bad, it was just a slight graze.

Dan took a quick shower and put on his usual black skinny jeans with a black sweatshirt. He put in his earrings, remembering that Phil complimented them last time. Even though last night didn't end very romantic he didn't care. He didn't need Phil to have sex with him, he just wanted to be around him, that was enough.

Dan walked into the kitchen to see his mother was already up and breakfast was ready. "Good morning honey." She mumbled while grabbing plates. "How'd you sleep?"

"Fine.. I got a migraine again..." Dan said as he grabbed some painkillers from a kitchen drawer. His mom sighed with a worried look in her eyes. "Dan..." Dan gave his best smile. "It's fine mom, probably just a little tired."

"Dan... I wanted to talk about Phil..."  She set down the plates and sat down, waiting for Dan to join her. "What about him? I thought you liked him?" Dan frowned as he swallowed some pills for his migraine. 

"I do honey, really I do but..." she bit her lip, searching for words. "But what?" Dan asked, slightly annoyed. Phil was the only good thing about the last week, he wouldn't accept anything negative about him right now.

"Sit down please." His mom gestured to the chair across from her. Dan crossed his arms. "No. Tell me what's going on." She took a deep breath, as if she was preparing herself.

"Honey, a lot has been going on for the last week..." she paused for a second. "For the last year actually." she corrected herself. "And I know it's been very hard on you."

"Yes well it's been better with Phil around." Dan said determined, a little skeptical about where this conversation was going. "Yes... I saw how happy he made you during dinner yesterday..." His mom nodded looking down at her empty plate. "I don't think you should date him sweetie."

Dan raised his eyebrows. "You what?" "Just... let me explain please." His mom put up her hand to shush him. "You've been through a lot of hurt after what happened with Spencer last year." she blinked a few times. "I just don't want you to get hurt again."

"Phil is not Spencer, mom." Dan said, now getting more than annoyed. He was perfectly capable of figuring out his own love life. "No, I'm not saying that he is. He's probably a great guy Dan, but right now, maybe dating is not the best choice for you..." His mom spoke the words like a grenade could go off at any time.

"Why not? Phil makes me feel good!" Dan tried to stay calm. "I realize that honey, but you're fragile at the moment..." "Fragile?!" Dan exclaimed. "No not fragile." his mom shook her head trying to undo the damage. "I mean..." a pause. "Well?" Dan put up his hands. "What is it?!"

"If something were to go wrong in the next few weeks, do you think you'd be able to handle another heartbreak?" his mom asked, her eyes almost pleading for Dan to try and understand. This question broke something inside of him, he could feel it, because he knew she wasn't wrong. After everything that had happened the last year, he wouldn't survive another heartbreak.

"Nothing is gonna go wrong..." he whispered, feeling tears coming. His mom shook her head. "You don't know that honey, it started the same way with Spencer."

"Well Phil isn't fucking Spencer!" Dan yelled out and kicked the chair in front of him, slamming it into the breakfast table, causing it and everything on it to shake. His mother gasped and put her hand on her chest out of shock.

Dan scared himself when he saw his mom's reaction, immediately regretting what he had done. "I'm sorry...." Dan put both his hands in his hair, his body shaking slightly. "I'm sorry mom..." he whispered again.

"It's fine sweetie, please just sit down." Dan saw the fear in his moms eyes, she was scared of him. He made his own mom scared. He had to leave now. "I'm gonna be late for school." he mumbled before walking away, still in complete shock.

"Dan please." he heard his mom getting up from her chair behind him, but he couldn't stay. He grabbed his jacked and his backpack and walked out the front door without looking behind him. When he got in his car his mom walked towards him, still talking but he couldn't process the words. Trying to avoid her gaze he drove away, leaving his mom standing outside.

The moment his house was out of sight tears started rolling down his cheeks. Then more and more and he quickly pulled his car over when he started sobbing. He put his forehead on the steering wheel and cried loudly, slamming his palm onto the wheel. 

Pain, from knowing his mom was right and he was way to weak to get into a relationship at the moment. Anger, at the world, how was it fair that he had to give up the only good thing in his life right now. Regret that he made his mom scared, she actually feared him.

 He fucked everything up, and there was no turning back.

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