Together is enough // phanfiction

Part 30

Phil

Phil hadn't seen Dan all day, they didn't have class together and during lunch break he was nowhere to be found. This really pissed Phil off because he now needed Dan more than anything and he wasn't responding to his texts.

So when his last class ended Phil went to the parking lot, all the way to the end where Dan parked his car everyday. Phil sighed with relieve when he saw it was there. He decided to just wait by the car. 

He threw his bag on the floor and leaned back on the car, immediately flinching and standing back up. The new abrasions on his back from the night before were burning. After Spencer's parents left his dad came into his room and made him pay for what he said to them.

He deserved it honestly, he was disrespectful and rude but he just couldn't help himself. He couldn't just stand there and listen to them calling Dan a liar and saying how proud they were of their son. 

Phil slowly lowered himself and sat down next to the car, crossing his legs. He waited like this for over thirty minutes before he saw Dan walking towards him. He stood up quickly, brushing off the dirt on his jeans. 

Dan hadn't noticed Phil yet, he was looking down at the ground as he walked over slowly. His posture was pure shit and his hair was hanging in front of his face. When he was only a few feet away he looked up and saw Phil standing by his car.

First thing Phil wanted to do was run into his arms and cry, but when Dan looked him in the eye he saw that Dan had red puffy eyes and his face was really pale. "Dan?" Phil asked worried, "Are you okay?" he took a step closer but Dan averted his eyes.

"I'm fine." his voice sounded rough, "What are you doing here?" 

Phil frowned confused, "Waiting for you... where were you during lunch today?" he put his hand on Dan's shoulder trying to get his attention.

"Studying..." Dan was still looking away and kicked some dirt. Phil knew something was wrong, really wrong. "Do you wanna go somewhere and talk?" Phil asked, rubbing his thumb over Dan's shoulder.

"No!" Dan's head shot up and finally looked Phil in the eye. "No... I can't." he mumbled shaking his head. 

"Dan what's going on? Did the guys bother you again?" Phil could feel himself get increasingly worried. 

Dan shook his head again. "No..." he turned his head away, tears in his eyes. 

"Do you wanna just hang out for a second?" Phil let his hand fall from Dan's shoulder to his hand, holding it.

"No... we can't..." Dan's voice broke, "We can't hang out anymore..." he whispered. Phil's stomach dropped and he felt his heartbeat starting to race. "What do you mean?" he said softly.

Dan pulled the hand away that Phil was holding. "I don't want to hang out with you anymore Phil." he closed his eyes, a single tears rolling down his cheek. "We're done."

Phil shook his head, his eyes widening. This wasn't happening, he needed Dan. And Dan needed him... right? "Why?" Phil managed to get out. He felt tears burning behind his eyes.

Dan opened his eyes and took a deep shaky breath. "Because..." he clenched his jaw and fists, "Because I don't like you Phil." Another tear rolled down.

He's lying. This is a joke, a sick joke. "No..." Phil's breath got stuck in his throat. "You... We k-kissed..." Phil suddenly felt incredibly dumb and ashamed. Did all those things that meant the world to him mean nothing to Dan? Was this all one sided?

"I was bored okay?!" Dan spat out. "I was bored and you were there!" he sounded angry but he didn't look angry. He looked hurt, in pain. "I used you alright?! And now I'm done with you so leave me alone." He walked to his car and shoved Phil with his shoulder.

Phil could feel his heart break on the inside. It was like a deep ache inside his chest first, then came a storm in his mind. A dark storm that took all the happy thoughts away in an instant and left nothing but pain and sadness. 

How could someone actually fall for you? You didn't think you were worth something did you? Look at yourself, you're weak. You can't even stand up for yourself, you're not a real man.

Phil turned around but Dan was already started his car. "Dan..." his voice broke. Tears started to come down and before he knew it he was a crying mess. But Dan just drove away, he didn't care. 

He never cared about you, you were just a toy in his game.