The Arrangement | Completed | Wattys2020

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The picture haunts my brain every time I let my mind wonder. The picture of their smiling faces that took over my little screen is enough to make me sick. I hate to see him happy. Well, to see him happy with her. With her stupid blonde hair and her perfect smile and her perfect body. Seeing her with Matty who is also perfect is just...fucking shitty.

It's not fair. It really just isn't fair.

I don't want to be ignorant, but I honestly think she is just used to getting everything she wants in life. She is one of those girls who has never had to struggle for much, and she thinks that she can just walk in and take the one thing that I had and she wanted. Well, I mean, that's kind of exactly what she did. It just isn't fair, though. 

It isn't hard for me to get back in the loop of things at work. Actually, it feels as though I never really left. I like to think of it as an extended vacation. I mean, in a way, that's pretty much all it was anyways. My relationship with Matty was just an extended vacation from real life. He was truly the greatest escape. Now, our relationship turned out to be the greatest calamity I have ever experienced. 

It's only my third day back at work, and only an hour into the shift I am greeted by a very unwelcomed visitor. Kristian strides through the door with sunglasses on, even though it looks as though it might rain outside. Of course. He is definitely one of those guys that wears sunglasses indoors. 

"Candace, I need to talk to you." He says, not giving so much as a hello. 

"Jesus Christ. It's my third day back, do you really have to cause a scene here?" I groan, already knowing what is bound to happen if we talk.

"I have been up here every single day for weeks now. Where the hell have you been?" He exclaims.

"Is that really any of your concern, Kristian?" I huff, trying to do anything that will keep me busy. 

"Candance, please." He exhales, taking the sunglasses off and looking at me with those deep brown eyes that I loved for so long.

"What do you want, Kristian?" I sigh, finally giving up and just letting this conversation finally happen. 

"I just...i've been thinking." 

"Well that's a first." I say, rolling my eyes.

He glares at me but continued. "I've been thinking lately and I just...I feel bad for the way that things ended with us. I'm not saying I want you back, because I don't. But I just started to think about when you gave me the key to my place. The one that you always kept on a necklace...it just kind of sucked, you know? You were my favorite person to talk to. You were the funniest person I knew, and you even laughed at my jokes when they clearly weren't funny. We aren't ever going to be the way we used to be, but I hope that we can maybe try and work our way there. You were my bestfriend before we started to date. That means that when we broke up, I didn't just lose my girlfriend. I lost my bestfriend. So I guess all i'm trying to say is that i'm sorry. For being a shitty boyfriend but more importantly for being a shitty bestfriend. I just...I miss you, Candy." He admits, looking very sheepish.

To say that I am surprised would be an understatement. The fact that Kristian is infront of me saying these things blows my mind.

"You came all the way here just to tell me that?" I ask, not believing it even though it is obviously true.

"Well, yeah. I mean, it's not like you've been answering my text messages recently." He pointed out. 

Out of all of the text messages I have received from him, not one is left. I just don't want to deal with the fight that I was bound to happen with every message sent. I guess I just don't want to deal with him or the drama any more. Ignoring it is the best option for me.