Poems

my mask

MY MASK

That smile you see

That laugh you hear

Behind every grin

Through the eyes

And deep inside

All you see is a mask

To hide the pain

A mask to hide the shame

And how alone i feel

How left out i feel

Behind my mask is a me i hide

You tell me to tell you how i feel

And say what i think

But when i do you say i'm lying

And that it's not true

So?

You told me to tell you

And so my mask stays

My fake smile

And false laugh

A wicked grin

Hide a me no one can see

But maybe i just need

The right person

So i write

Day by day

To show me inside

Through words on a page

That no one reads

And yet i write myself down

So my mask can't over take me

And so i will always belong

And behind a mask

Lies a me

That is dying to be free

But with those around who say i'm lying

How?

Through my artistry

And my words

My mask falls away

But in the face of others it holds and casts the illusion

That only music and poetry can break

My mask

this is written because ,i feel like my parents ignore me as my older sister has vision issues.They tend to make me adapt to do the things she can and if she runs into me i have to move. They do something she wants but if i want the same thing and she doesn't want it we don't do it very often.My mom often tells me to say how i feel yet when i do she tells me to stop complaining or stop lying.So i hide behind a mask of joy as when i cry or something they are like i don't know why you are like this. I wish you where more social,yet how can it be social when all you do is sit on your phones when i am out there or complain when i am too loud.So i stay in my room. Sorry just annoyed about it all.