"I have this constant need to always destroy boundaries, whether they are physical or emotional. I need to know that no one needs me, and I need to feel the danger, to remind myself that I'm still alive.
Life has no value unless we not risk losing it." - Harry
***
"Oh, fuck..." and I bite my lip, pulling Eleanor's hair, to speed up the rhythm. I'm pushing my hips and lean my free hand on the shelf behind me. I tried again to tell her that she's just a girl for the night, that she pisses me off, and in the end I find myself pressed against the wall while she does something inhuman with her tongue. I can't stop groaning and literally explode in her mouth.
"Damn you, El."
Panting, I look down and see her still standing on her knees in front of me, she wipes her mouth and smiles smugly. This girl is manipulating me through sex, and every time I'm led. I almost have time to pull the boxes as the closet door opens, and a pair of green eyes looking at me in surprise. His gaze paralyzed me that I can't even think of him some ridiculous nickname. He looks very angry, and I begin to understand why people are so afraid of it. His eyes are so piercing that even Eleanor seems to have forgotten how to breathe. Although this is was didn't last more than ten seconds. Ten seconds, he didn't take his eyes away from me. Ten seconds, his eyes literally burning through me, and then he left. Just like that. He slams the door and leaves without a word. And I'm totally shocked.
"What was that?"
Eleanor's voice brings me back from my mind, and when she gets up, and I get the strangest feeling in the world. I am angry at her.
"Fuck off."
And I'm out of the closet, having only buttoned pants, and slam the door too.
***
"He's sexy."
"But this guy has a problem with his head, look at him."
"Yes, but he's hot, and I wouldn't mind..."
"Hey, girls, what are you talking about?"
I and Liam put our trays on the table, I sit down next to Eleanor and Daniel kissed Liam. Something new. I turn my head and see how El reached for a kiss. Oh no, sleep together – it's okay, but to play a couple in love – it's too much. So she answered to Liam, whose mouth free again.
"About Styles." and she shows in the Mr. I-Burn-In-People-A-Hole-By-Gaze which sits alone with a can of Coca-Cola in his hand.
"I think that he's pretty good in bed."
"Yep, crazy people, actually quite good in this way."
Liam eats, and the girls again begin a conversation, which I didn't pay attention to. I look at him and frown. He every time with one and the same huge book, interestingly, what such in it?
"Do you remember his ex-girlfriend? What her name was..."
"Sarah?"
"No...Um, Samantha!"
"Yeah, right, Samantha. People say that she had to leave the university because he turned her life into hell!"
And then I became interested in the conversation and looking at Daniel.
"What do you want to say?"
She leans forward and inspects the room, like a guy who sits ten meters away from us, could be able to hear.
