I was putting Nathan down for the night, Shawn hasn't come home and it's been hours. I've asked Karen, Aaliyah, manny everyone it's felt like but they've all said they haven't heard from him.
I sat in the rocking chair in Nathan room and rocked him to sleep with a bottle in my hand. I felt my eyes slowly drifting making me fall asleep.
What literally felt like two seconds later I heard someone knocking on the door. I looked and saw Shawn, I scoffed thinking about how long he was out with all of us worrying about him. I picked Nathan up as he stirred in my arms and walked into my bed
I went into my room put nathan on the left side of the bed where Shawn would usually sleep. I walked around as Shawn asked me questions why I was mad. I made a pillow thing around Nathan so he wouldn't roll off the bed.
I took off my slip dress so I was just in my underwear and crawled into my bed. I turned around so I was facing Nathan, his arms wrapped around my waist and hung onto my like a koala. I close my eyes and felt Shawn lay next to Nathan he put his arm on my waist so it was lightly hanging off. He looked at me.
"What's wrong?" He asked moving a strand of loose hair and tucking it behind my ear.
"Nothing.." I whispered back but showed attitude to show I was annoyed. He leaned in for a kiss, I pushed away not wanting to have it.
His body was hanging off because the pillows surrounding Nathan were pushing him off. "Well, I clearly cant sleep here.." he chuckled quietly trying to make the mood happier.
"Mmhm." I nodded closing my eyes again.
"Where do you want me to sleep?" He asked equally as disappointed as I was but for a different reason
"I don't know. The sofa." I snapped stating the obvious.
I quiet "Wow" left shawns mouth as he was shocked by my response. He walked into Nathan's room to get a spare blanket to sleep on the sofa.
I closed my eyes but couldn't sleep comfortably knowing Shawn was probably freezing himself on the WHitE sofa. I slowly peeled Nate's arms off of my waist and walked downstairs.
I saw Shawn on the sofa with his back facing me. I shuffled around and rubbed his bare back. I placed a kiss as we sat there with our breath in sync.
He slowly turned back. He moved so I could lay down next to him. He put his arms around my waist the same way Nathan did. I rubbed his back and messed around with the curls at the back of his neck.
"What's wrong? Why did you snap all randomly?" I asked breaking the peaceful silence.
"Please don't get mad." He looked up at me with his tried eyes. What has happened. "Andrew has booked me loads of festivals to play."
"Okay? Why is that a bad thing? You getting to play loads of shows, don't you love doing that anymore?"I was genuinely concerned why Shawn thought it was a bad thing.
"It's this year, the run starts next year, I'm going to be gone for four months." He huffed. He looked like he was going to cry
"So?" I questioned. Why was he so upset.
"Yeah, han, I'm so sorry, I tried to talk to Andrew but I have to do the shows. There's no way I can back out. I'm so sorry.... I have to miss the first few years of baby's life."
"It's okay, what's the exact day you're going to leave?"
"5th May," he looked up at me again.
"It's fine, we will work it out. I mean, we will have to FaceTime everyday so you don't miss a single thing."
"Can I just say you look extremely sexy in that." He placed kisses on my lips and then on my chest.
I playfully pushed his lips off of my chest "you know my rule on sex while pregnant. I don't like it, unless..." I said to Shawn
"Unlessss..." Shawn smirked back
"Mama? Dada?" I looked back and saw Nathan standing in front of Shawn and I with his blanket in face nuzzled into it. I looked back and smiled and pulled him up to us and put him so we was on both Shawn and I chest.
I kissed his head then shawns temples. "Love you.." I said locking my hands with Shawn.
I looked down at his hands and admired his tattoos, they were all beautiful and had the best meanings behind them. "I still can't believe you got my name tattooed on your hand." I smiled after pecking his hand.
"Why? You're my baby mama."
"Oh my god! Did you actually say baby mama?" I chuckled quietly in between my words. "Ew, that's means you're my baby daddy." I chuckled
"Why is that ew?" Shawn questioned.
"Just the term, baby daddy. Just ew no." I responded. "What time is it?"
Shawn looked at his phone. The light made both of us squint our eyes. "1am"
"Damn babe what time did you get in?"
"11. I'm sorry I put you through all that stress." He whispered.
"It's alright." I pecked his temple. I felt a soft peck on my arm. "Who was that". It wasn't Shawn. I looked down and saw Nate looking up at me with a pout on his lips. I kissed his lips and smiled. Oh my god. He's too cute for me.
"Nay." Nathan said responding to my question. His tone was soft and tired. "I love you!" I chuckled and I rubbed his tiny head.
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