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Chapter 84

3rd January 2022

I threw the vegetables into the pan. I heard Nathan's little feet pitter patter on the floor until he was Standing by me.

Shawn was holding skylar in the living room looking after and playing with her. "Oh my baby sky.." he said before kissing her cheeks.

Nate started hitting the buttons on the oven and turning the switch on and off repeatedly. "Nathan, stop." I said looking at him for a second then back on the food.

He didn't listen to he carried on. "Nathan." He looked at me and gave me a grin

"No!" He said. It wasn't his first time saying it but still every time he says no it takes me by surprise.

He carried on. "Right, I told you to stop and you aren't doing it." He started tapping my leg. "You're really testing my patience here Nathan."

"Mmmmm.." left his mouth

"Go to daddy.." I rubbed his head

"No." He hit his hand on the floor

"Shawn please take him." I looked over my shoulder

"I can't babe, im sorry." He called

I looked at Nathan and saw him hitting the oven. "Right!" I picked him up from the floor and put him on the bottom step of the stairs. "You need to stay here until mummy comes to get you."

Nathan's lips started to quiver. This was when I remembered what mum had told me on Boxing Day when he had one of his meltdowns which are coming up more often. "He's going to cry but don't give in" I remembered mums words and walked away.

I went into the living room and since the ground floor of the house I could hear Nathan perfectly. "Oh my goddd." I grounded and sat next to Shawn

I put my head on his shoulder "don't cry darling.." he kissed the top of my head

"I know I just feel so horrible.." a tear fell down my face.

"You had to do what you had to do." He told me again why I put him on the step. "He was going to get hurt and put his hand in the fire."

Nathan's started screaming and hitting the floor. "Should I get him?" I asked

"Leave it for at least another two minutes." Shawn looked at the time on his watch

"Muuuummmyyyy!!" He cried begging me to take him off. "Dddadddyyyy!!!!" He cried

"I can't do this. I'm gonna get him," I stood up from the sofa and made my way back to Nathan.

"Come here babe.." I hugged him "mummy only done that because you were going to get hurt and you weren't listening to me." I kissed the top of his head. He wasn't understanding me but at least I can say it out loud why I had to do that to make me feel better.

"Toons?" He said as he sniffled

I held his hand as we walked back into the kitchen. I put him on the sofa next to Shawn and put on cartoons.

I went back into the kitchen to plate all of the food. "Shawwwnn." I called twice.

I looked over into the kitchen and saw Nathan had fallen asleep on shawns lap and sky was asleep laying on his chest. "Oh my god.." I chuckled

"They are honestly the cutest things on earth.." he rubbed skylar then Nathan's back

"Should I feed you then?" I asked

"If you don't mind.." he gave me a tight lipped smile and kissed my hand before I walked away to get his food