Fiction.

Chapter 22: Small Petunia of the Galaxy.

Chapter 22: Small Petunia of the Galaxy.

I don’t remember much of that night; I just remember feeling horrible and coughing up my lungs. I remember eating dinner with Peasnie then that’s it. When I woke up next I was in the hospital with an oxygen mask on my face, IV lines running into my arms and a heart monitor beeping away. My eyes felt like sandpaper when I blinked and I felt drained of energy.

My friends and family came into the private room with worried expressions, they gathered around me with nervous questions that I wanted to answer but I couldn’t. Peasnie forced a smile and hovered in the door way nervously. I needed to make her feel better, she was scared and it’s my job to make the bad go away. I slid the oxygen mask over my head and set it down on the table beside me. I waved her over to me with a blank expression.

“Peasnie, come here.” I said softly, my voice was weaker than I expected. She frowned and hesitated as she stepped closer to me. She jerked around as I pulled her close to me in a hug. She loosely wrapped her arms around me and forced a smile.

“I’m sorry I scared you.” I apologized with a sweet undertone. Peasnie shook her head and pulled away from me slowly.

“It’s fine. I’m just glad I got to you in time.” She said and looked down at me with glassy blue eyes.

“I am too.” I replied with a joking tone. Everybody laughed except for Peasnie. She was still really freaked out. I remembered something from tonight, I called her Rosie. I accidently called her, her mother’s name. The guys went away to make some calls and some coffee. Peasnie sat at the end of my bed with watched me nervously. I really did feel horrible about what I did.

“Peasnie, I’m sorry I called you your mom’s name.” I apologized again. Peasnie smiled, it was obviously forced. It didn’t seem natural but she was trying to show me she was okay so I wouldn’t worry about her. I wanted to hold her in my arms and make sure she’s okay forever and always. She inhaled and exhaled deeply and forced a smile again.

“You never called me Rosie.” She lied. I had to play along with this, if she thinks its best that I didn’t know I called her, her mom’s name then so be it. I pulled my eye brows together milking the act.

“I thought I did.”

“Nope, you never called me Rosie.” She snapped at me with a gentle voice. She was lying to me and I knew that. Peasnie moved from the foot of my bed to the chair across the room when the guys came in with Lacy and coffee. Lacy came over to me and gave me a kiss and a hug. I saw Peasnie roll her eyes as she stayed in the corner of the room with Matt beside her.

“That’s it, I’m moving in with you or you’re moving in with me. I’m not letting this happen again.” Lacy staggered with fearful tears. She was scared for me and that’s not allowed. I smiled wearily and wiped away her tears.

“You’re moving in with me.” I said in a demanding way. She smiled widely and kissed me again. I bought a ring the other day. I want to ask her to marry me, soon. I’m so excited to have a family, a proper family now. Lacy looked over to Peasnie with a smile.

“Peasnie, it’ll be nice for you so when all the guys are there you’re not the only girl.” Lacy said to Peasnie. Peasnie faked a smile and nodded. She wasn’t amused by this. I heard her say something but I didn’t hear what. Matt shook his head, he heard what she said and he found it rather amusing. While everybody was socializing Peasnie was sitting like an antisocial teenager with her arms crossed over her chest and a miserable expression crossed her face.

“Dad when were you going to tell me you had a heart problem?” Peasnie blurred out with a strong tone. I frowned and sighed heavily. I felt like crap for knowing I caused this. She looked at me and faked a smile.

“I’m asking because I’ve got the same heart problem.” She said. I frowned even more at her. I knew she had some heart problems. I remember the huge scare I had back in High School. Zacky jumped up and made a scene.

“You two are alike in more ways than one.” He cheered happily. I smiled and laughed at the true fact. Its insane how much alike we were. Lacy left with the guys, leaving me with my daughter again.

She was huddled up in the chair with a pail expression. Her skin was ghost white while her eyes were ringed with dark brown circles. Her blue eyes were reddened and looked like they hurt a large amount. Her lips were pail as well and her hair was tousled back from her face. She was still in her PJs, a pair of black sweat pants that were rolled up to her knees, they had New York written across her backside; I bought them for her, I wasn’t looking. She wore a black tank top with a purple hoodie. Her little slip on shoes was white and her socks were white as well.

The room was silent but it screamed so much, she was quiet and deep in thought. She knew something I didn’t. And that made tears roll down her face slowly. I couldn’t get out of bed to go be with her and that irritated me deeply. I had to sit there and watch as she cried softly to herself. I shifted in the bed, catching her blue gaze. Her lower lip quivered violently as her eyes were glued on me. Something happened and I needed to stop it. She needed to tell me so I can help her.

“I’m off the wall, out of my fucking mind. I’m out of control.” She whispered softly, her voice was so small and raspy I could barely hear it. I sank into the horrible feeling and watched her carefully. Her face became flushed and she covered the frown with her sleeve. I sat up a little better in the bed and patted the bed beside me. She moved quickly over to my side, her body fell against mine as she whimpered into her sleeve. I understood now. She did something she promised me she wouldn’t do. I felt my stomach fall into a bottomless pit. I felt my heart throb inside my chest sadly.

“Why did you do it?” I asked softly, she sobbed softly. I stroked her long hair softly and reassuringly. She needed to be reassured.

“I was scared I was going to lose you and I’d have to go back to Chicago. I can’t go back there.” She went onto tell me she had no friends, absolutely no friends in the eighth grade and in the beginning of ninth grade. She lost her friends when they found out about her bad habit. She was a good student and did all she could to stay at school. She joined every school club so she wouldn’t be at home. I hugged her tightly and made sure she was done crying. I needed to act on something quickly.

“You’re just a small petunia of the galaxy; you’re staring up at the sky without a care in the world. Shoot for the moon and land in the stars.”I whispered softly to her.

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