My New Doctor

Chapter 27

Rachel's POV

We went downstairs and Harry just looked at me, he was clearly still angry and upset but all I could see in his eyes was sympathy. "Why rach? You said you'd tell me if you wanted to again" Harry said

"I heard everything, I'm just a silly mistake and so I was planning on achieving the outcome that she wanted in the first place" I replied on the verge of tears once again

"Don't even think about it rach!! She means nothing to us now! I'm your big brother and I'm going to look after you and protect you but you need help babe, I'm calling Zayn over here now because all this stops today, do you understand me?" Harry blurted out in a very stern tone of voice. I just full on broke down into tears and he just hugged me and phoned Zayn

*phone call*

Z- hello?

H- Zayn you busy?

Z- just clocking off work why?

H-I need your help can you come round?

Z-okay I'll be there soon

Harry got off the phone and then phoned work to say he couldn't make it back and to re schedule his later appointments for tomorrow.

It didn't take Zayn long to get here but I didn't feel like talking

"What's up?" Zayn asked Harry

"Rach?" Harry said looking at me and I just shook my head

"Rachel has decided to start self harming" Harry said back flatly

"Decided? You think I chose this? You think I want to do this? This wasn't a choice it was an escape from this stupid fucking world okay so don't even try and say that I chose to do this!" I screamed standing up and grabbing my crutches but before I could get anywhere Harry pulled me back.

"Look I didn't mean it like that and I'm sorry princess I didn't want to upset you I just worded it wrong but I won't have you speaking to me like that okay! Do not use that language around me okay?"

"Sorry" I mumbled sitting back down

"Rachel? You said it was your escape! Can you explain it to me?" Zayn said sweetly

"No" I replied flatly and just cwtched into the sofa

"Rach there's no need to be so rude, he's trying to help you!" Harry said

"I don't want his help or your help because none of you understand and so what's the point in even trying to explain it to you because you just tell me not to as if I can help it and he will just write down on a stupid computer that there's something wring with me! So who says you doctors don't judge people because your the worst ones for it" I said back trying to stay calm but failed when the tears came streaming down my face again!

"Rachel, I'm not going to judge you love and this is just me trying to offer my experience to help you through a rough time! This isn't me coming over as a doctor this is me being a friend of Harry's and helping you both out that's all" Zayn said softly

"Rach I don't know what you think we are trying to achieve here but we are only here to help you!!! You need to stop thinking like this and let Zayn help you" Harry said wiping my tears away

"I don't want to be helped, I want to get away from all this! I'm sick of it, I can't even be happy anymore because I'm never happy even when there's nothing wrong"

"Rach how long have you felt like this?" Zayn asked

"Months"

"Why didn't you tell me?" Harry asked and I could hear the emotion in his voice now

"You were busy with work and you were happy"

Zayn's POV

I could see how much this was affecting Harry because I've never seen him cry or even get upset but the tears were building in his eyes and he looked at Rachel with such a pained look on his face it was hard to see

"Okay Rachel, none of that matters now okay? That was the past and you need to move forwards not back yeah? you can trust me honestly and Harry's your brother and he would never do anything to hurt you and we don't want to judge you either, there's nothing you can tell us that we haven't already seen or been through ourself" I said trying to calm her down

"You haven't been through any of this!!" She shouted at me

"Actually I have! I grew up without my father around and my mother was always working and then she left when I was 18 and I haven't seen her since! I used to do what you do but I know now that it was a very big mistake I just wish I had someone like Harry to help me but instead I had to look after my little sister" she had disbelief written all over her face and so I showed her my scars

"I'm so sorry" she said crying

"It's okay just let us help you yeah?"

"Ok" she mumbled

Harry just looked at me and mouthed 'thank you'

Harry's POV

I've never been so glad to have Zayn around because I knew that the second I tried to speak my voice would let me down and I wouldn't be able to control the tears but I have to because if I can't show Rachel that I'm strong enough t I help her through this then she wouldn't even try and I couldn't lose her!!