Over The Seas [Kim Sunwoo The Boyz]

Ch. Eleven

A month later...

Now that I came to a conclusion that I do have feelings for Sunwoo, things have just been getting weird.
I mean, I'm not new to the whole crush thing but it just seems different. As if it was more than just a crush...
I'm not too obsessed with it, nor should I be, but I don't want it messing anything up.

I met up with Sewoon in front of the school gate. I wanted to tell him about Sunwoo for a while now but I don't want it to seem like a big deal. Plus, he's the type of friend that would tease me 24/7.

Throughout my first class, I was too distracted. This is a normal thing, I know, I just don't daydream about anyone, really.

I kinda can't wait to see him after school.

"Riyae!!"
I turned around and saw Sewoon trying to catch up to me before I sat down to eat my lunch.
"What is it?" I asked.
"You seemed really distracted back there in class. Are you okay?"
He actually seemed concerned. Maybe it is a big enough deal to talk about it.
"Yeah," I answered. I don't know how to talk about my feelings anymore.
"It's just something small. Nothing to really worry about."

Sewoon got annoyed.
"Well, what is it?"

How do I do this??
Whatever, I'll just wing it.

"Don't you think it's weird that I like someone but I don't feel like talking about it, even to my best friend? I get weird when get a crush, I feel like a different person. I become obsessed with that guy and forget about the work soon enough to where they're all I think and dream about. It's an awful process, which is why I stopped focusing on crushes and feelings because the whole thing is stupid. But I can't help myself anymore. I get confused when I'm with him because I know the consequences of having these feelings. It's a huge mess, I already know. I don't trust anyone with this. That's why you can't understand because I'm speaking in English..."

Sewoon looked at me with a blank face.
"What???"
I sighed.
"Sorry, when I get too emotional, I speak in English. Now if I get mad, I speak Spanish."
"Wow, I didn't know that." He's still confused.
"It doesn't matter. You'll know in time."
Sewoon just nodded and shook it off.
Then we ate in peace.

In time, maybe Sunwoo will know. In time.