Over The Seas [Kim Sunwoo The Boyz]

Ch. Thirty

All this time....and I'm just realizing it now?? Am I really this stupid that I didn't even realize that the girl I so eagerly wanted to be friends with and went to the extent of being jealous of her friendship with her bestfriend, but not just because of their friendship but because she could possibly like him and they ended up together???? What is wrong with me?!?!?

I looked back up and everyone was just staring at me.
"How could I be this oblivious?" I asked myself out loud.
"Hey, don't blame yourself." Haknyeon spoke.
I looked at him with eyes of hope.
"If I'm being honest, I've never seen you happier than when you were with her that one time she came over- even when you simply talk about her. Obviously, we're all happiest seeing our fans and doing what we love...but this is a different type of happiness, you know? Like on a whole new level."
"But it's not your fault that you're not experienced enough with girls and your own feelings."
"You can say that again." Whispered Hyunjoon to Eric, who was right beside me.
"You just got a bit confused between a friendship and something more."
They all nodded in agreement once again. And he was right. I never paid much attention to my own feelings and emotions back then...I really regret that now.
"What do I do then? Any advice and suggestion would be great.
"What if you dedicated a song for her?" Jacob suggested first.
"That might be great for your image but that doesn't really sound like Sunwoo." Eric replied.

It was great seeing everyone trying to help me. These types of things don't usually happen to us since we have other things on our minds but it's always enjoyable to talk about stuff like this.

"Why can't you just go talk to her now?" Asked Younghoon, finally being apart of the conversation.
"She's out of town for the holidays." I responded. "I actually tried to do that already but Jihoon told me that they were gonna be away for a few weeks."
"And do you know when exactly she's coming back?" He asked.
"...I forgot to ask."
He shook his head in disappointment.
"You can't just text her?" This time Hyunjae asked.
"No, she hasn't responded to the last ones I sent her yet so I doubt she will now"
The room went silent as they all tried to come up with ideas that could help me fix this mess that I had made.
"I have an idea!" Exclaimed Juyeon. His ideas aren't the worst but his experience with girls are about the same level as mine, if not, less.

Anything could help at this point.

"Let's hear it."
"Just wait until she comes back." Everyone simultaneously started at him with looks of anticipation, hoping there's more to his solution.
"When she comes back, you could do something meaningful- take her somewhere that means something to only you too. Like, the place you first met or your favorite place to hang out- something that signifies your relationship. Then you can just be open and honest and hope she understands and gives you a chance."
Another moment of silence broke into the room. We all knew the idea was the best by far and we were a bit disappointed we didn't come up with something simple like it sooner.
Juyeon continued. "You said you have weeks, right? Use that time to prepare what you want to say since you just realized you have feelings for her and just go for it."
They all slightly nodded in agreement. I know Riyae isn't one to like big public displays or anything that'll bring attention to her. She likes nice and simple, nothing too extravagant. This is the best shot I have.
"Thanks, man. I'll try my best not to mess up your plan but what if she doesn't show?" I asked Juyeon hoping for
more of his wisdom.
He sat there thinking for a bit, then answered, "Easy. Just trick her if you really don't think she'd want to see you."
"It'll be a fun surprise for her, wouldn't it." Said Changmin, with a smirk on his face.
"Guys, I'm feeling pretty confident about this."
"You should!" They gave my encouraging words and hyping me up for what's about to come. Thinking about doing this, telling Riyae about my feelings for her, brought me the different type of joy Haknyeon was talking about. And seeing my friends, my brothers, supporting me the whole way only added to that happiness.
This might actually work and I might have a chance.......
In the midst of everything, I had forgotten one small detail.
"Wait, guys," They all stopped and looked at me with confused faces.
"Let's say the plan does work, what then?"
They exchanged looks for a bit then they all knew what everyone was thinking.
"We can't date."
I had actually forgotten that I was an idol for a second and I think everyone else did too. There's no way around this, the answer is obvious.
Looks of disappointed filled the room. We all tried to think of loops holes but none were easy.
"The only thing we can really try to do is keep it a secret." suggested Younghoon.
"But that's too risky. We could get into big trouble." I replied.
"Can I ask you something, Sunwoo?" Suddenly Sangyeon had spoken and everyone became silent.
"Yeah?"
"Do you want a future with her?"
I was taken aback with the strong question. I haven't really had time to think that far ahead, a whole future with Riyae... it does sound really amazing.
"That is something I would like, yes." I answered with confidence.
"And you would say you really like her, like REALLY like her?"
I know this is all happening a bit fast and I haven't had time to completely process my feelings but looking back on all that we've been through and the things I did just to be close to her, how could I have not noticed what was right in front of me?
"Yes, I do." I said with a confident smile.
"I think there's your answer. You can't just throw away something special like it's nothing. You're still a kid, Sunwoo, you're allowed to fall in love like everyone else. I will admit, it's a bit unfortunate it had to happen now but look around- you have 11 of your best friends, your family, that all have your back. We'll help you keep this a secret from everyone, it won't be easy but it's the type of sacrifices we're all willing to give for your happiness."
Once again, everyone nodded with every word said by Sangyeon. He was right, if this works, it won't be easy. For me not for her, but I like her so much that it's something I'm willing to go through for us.
"Thank you guys so much. You have no idea how thankful I am." My gratitude was immeasurable, I knew talking to them would help me.
"No, don't mention it."
"Of course, we're all glad to help."
"Just don't mess this up!"
We all laughed at Eric's comment and we continued to joke around and laugh.
I finally know what to do now.