Over The Seas [Kim Sunwoo The Boyz]

Ch. Twenty-Eight

Time surely flew by. These last couple of weeks couldn't have been better.  Celebrating the holidays with my extended family members is definitely something to remember forever.
Today is our last day at my grandparents' house. Most of our family left in the morning since they live many hours away.
We all simultaneously decided to just stay home and hang out instead of going out. I think a nice break from constantly celebrating and being around people would be really nice right now.
After eating lunch, I went up to the room I was staying and accumulated all of the photos that I had taken.
My skills have definitely been getting better. I wish I could do this more often.
While looking back in the recent memories, I was reminded that it'll all soon be over; I'd have to go back to reality and deal with my problems.
Why can't we all just run away from our problems? Makes things easier...
All my thoughts started running, the ones I tried so hard to push back. Even though I wish there was an escape, I knew I'd have to deal with it one way or another.
I hear a sudden knock at the door.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"Who do you think?" Answered Jihoon as he went ahead and opened the door without permission.
"What do you want, Jihoon?"
"Eh, I kinda got bored of being in the living room watching our little cousins fight for the remote."
This is pretty strange; Jihoon rarely tries to have an actual conversation with me anymore.
I stopped what I was doing and gave him my full attention.
"That sucks."
"It does, doesn't it."
The room went quiet for a second. You could almost feel the bit of awkwardness in the room. It has been a while since Jihoon and I had sat down and had a talk. Part of me wanted to ask him about the past few months and his recent behavior, but I didn't know how to bring it up. I didn't
exactly believe that he just came up here because he was bored.
"Is there something on you mind?" He asked.
Jihoon is actually asking me a question about myself? Wonder if he hit is head somewhere...
With Sunwoo fresh on my mind, I knew how to answer his question, but I wasn't sure if that was what he was looking for.
"Why do you ask?"
"I don't know, I'm just curious about my little sis." He shrugged. For being a sort of guy who doesn't usually show his admiration for others, he really can't make himself sound convincing.
"Really?"
He huffed. "Fine, I'm curious about what happened that night with you and you-know-who."
...at least he was honest.
Was it something that I could really talk about with my brother? I didn't think he was the type to be curious about my life, let alone my non-existent love life.
"Why are you suddenly interested in that?" I asked.
"Well you are my sister and Sunwoo is one of my best friends. I know I haven't really been involved in the group much since I'm super busy but if there's something going on with my littler sister and my best friend, then I'd like to know about it."
I'm not sure if I really like his attitude towards it...but how can I give up an opportunity to talk about something serious with Jihoon?
"Do you seriously want to know?"
"Just let it all out."
I hesitated to speak. Retelling the events that had happened in full detail would bring back a lot of emotions. Summing it up would be better.
"Long story short, I told Sunwoo that I had feelings for him."
"You did what?? You actually have a crush on Sunwoo?!"
"Yeah but I don't want to." I assured him.
"Then why did you tell him?"
"I didn't really care at that point. We were having an argument so I got really frustrated with him and it kinda just came out."
Jihoon sat there with a face full of shock. I didn't think he'd have such a reaction. Or even try to continue the conversation.
"What were you arguing about?" He asked.
"You saw how he was treating Sewoon! I wasn't just gonna let that slide! He's my best friend and he can't act like that towards him."
"Sunwoo acts like that around everyone."
"He was purposefully attacking him! He even admitted to it." I could feel the same anger I had that night in my veins.
"Why did he attack Sewoon?"
I paused to calm myself down before telling him the next part. Even thinking about it made my eyes roll.
"He claims he was jealous of our friendship."
"Wait wait, Sunwoo? Jealous of you and Sewoon?"
"Yeah, thats what I thought."
"And instead of talking to you about it he treated him like crap?...That doesn't make much sense to me."
Now curious as to what Jihoon was thinking, I eagerly asked,"Why not?"
"Sunwoo is the type of guy who would rather talk about things than to hide them and make the other person guess what's wrong. That is unless he doesn't realize..." His voice trailed off as he got deep into thought.
"Realize what?" I asked impatiently.
He immediately shook his head and said, "That can't be possible."
"What is it, Jihoon!"
"Nothing, nothing. Forget it. Just continue."
Wonder what that was about. Why couldn't he just tell me, especially in the place that I am now, anything could help.
"Anyways, he went on about how hurt he was to see Sewoon and I so close when we had been hanging out a lot more recent-"
"Hang on, I have another question."
I gave him an icy stare for being rude and interrupting me.
"So he's jealous that he's not close to you as close as you are to Sewoon? Why is he so eager to be besties with you?"
"Yeah, that's what I can't figure out. And he wouldn't really just tell me, it was like he was playing some game with me."
My blood started to boil once again. Jihoon went back into his deep thinking. Ignoring him, I kept on going.
"He then started blaming himself for being the reason why we weren't as close just because he's a kpop idol and he knows I'm not really into that."
Jihoon was still contemplating as I spoke.
"I told him that I didn't really care about that but he kept on insisting it. I got really angry and I started losing my tempter fast. It clouded my thoughts and I suddenly blurted the words 'I like you' to him."
From trying my hardest to forget about it all, it felt good to let it off of my chest finally. Who would've known......
"Anyways, that's what happened and I don't really know what to do now."
Jihoon's normal face came back. I awaited his response.
"Well," I leaned in foward to get a better hear of his advice. Any advice would be great right now.
"First of all, what are they feeding you kids to have so many emotions at once like that."
I did feel a bit embarrassed opening up about my feelings to my brother. But he could be worse.
"Sis, I've had my fair share of arguments with people, and from what you're telling me, we react pretty much the same to those types of things. From what I could tell, you probably just forced it down and used this vacation to distract yourself. But you can't really run away from these types of things; You're gonna have to face them eventually."
I knew he'd say that.
Jihoon continued.
"You say you don't want to like him anymore, right."
I nodded.
"I don't think being mad at him with help you with that."
I knew he'd say that too.
"If I'm not wrong, I'd say you were just mad at yourself."
Hearing that didn't surprise me as much as I thought it would. I think a part of me knew that I was more mad at myself for falling in love with someone way out of my league, especially with someone as amazing and wonderful like Sunwoo. And I think I was mad at myself for thinking I even had a chance. I do have a bit of guilt for letting out my anger on him, but what's the point now?
"Yeah, I don't think you're wrong."
A face of satisfaction filled Jihoon's face as I proved him right.
"Then what do you suggest I do?"
He stopped for a second to think.
"If you really want to get over him, just don't overthink it. He'll be graduating soon so it'll be easier for you to move on. Just don't think about him or anything involving him and I'm sure you'd be fine."
I wish it were that easy.
"Thanks bro. I will say this is a bit weird though."
"What? Us talking like normal siblings?"
"Yeah, we don't really do this."
"I don't know, maybe it's all this family time that has made me soft."
We both let out a light chuckle. I will say it was nice to laugh with him, even if it was for a nanosecond.
"Plus you finally have a break from your trainee stuff."
He let out a heavy sigh as I said the word "trainee".
"Please don't say that word or anything about work."
I zipped my lips and pretended to throw and imaginary key.
"I just said to not say that word, not all words."
Laughter filled the room. I enjoyed my talk with Jihoon. And I did receive some goood advice and some things I forgot to realize about myself. Wheverever Sunwoo is right now, hopefully he already forgot about what happened. I'm sure he's having the time of his life celebrating the holidays.