Over The Seas [Kim Sunwoo The Boyz]

Ch. Twenty-Five

What more do I need to believe?
Suddenly, an idea strikes into my head.
. . .
No, it's too soon.
I glance at him once again.
I can't confess right now, it's too risky!...
But how else could I really know if its true?

The closer we got to my house, the more panicked I started feeling. Is this really the moment?

We finally arrived at the doorsteps of my home and I'm sure my heart was about to jump out of my chest.
"Well, I had a lot of fun tonight thanks to you." Sunwoo said with a bright smile of his face.
"I had fun too. Glad I was able to cheer you up."
He waved goodbye and started walking away.
Just get it over with, Riyae!
Without much thought, I suddenly opened my mouth and spoke.
"Hey, wait!"
He stopped and turned around to face me.
"Umm, can I ask you a quick question?"
He walked up closer to me.
"Sure, what's up?"
I swallowed all of my pride and without hesitation, I asked the question.
"Can you date?"
Sunwoo tilted his head slightly in confusion.
"Umm...?"
"Uhh," I scratched my head and looked around trying my best to come up with some explanation to my stupid question. "What I mean is," I let out an awkward laugh.
"You know how my brother is a trainee, right? I was just asking to see if there's some sort of rule against all of that."
Sunwoo stood there with the same confused expression.
"You see, I care about my brother and, you know, it's about time he finds a girl he's interested in." I lied.
What the heck am I talking about?!
He chuckled.
"That's nice of you to ask for your brother."
"I know right! So nice of me.." I fake smiled and nodded hoping to hide my lies.
"It's different for every company but for me, I'm honestly not too sure."
"Why's that?" I asked immediately.
He shrugged.
"It's not something we really cared enough to ask about."
"Would you date if you could?"
I anxiously waited for his answer.
"We're too busy to worry about that kind of stuff. I haven't really stopped and asked myself if it was a possibility so I don't really know."
Oh...
"Thanks, goodnight." I turned my back and walked into my house without waiting to hear him reply.

I sluggishly walked upstairs to my room and immediately layed down on my bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Of course he'd say that." I spoke out loud to myself.
"I mean, what kind of dumb question was that? You're so ignorant when it comes to love and romance..."
I put my hands to my face in frustration.
"What was I thinking?! What was I expecting?! Obviously, he doesn't have time to worry about dating, let alone even be interested in me."
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I don't think I've ever been this embarrassed with myself.
"This is why I don't like having feelings- it all ends up the same...at least I know for sure that Sunwoo doesn't like me."