the girl in the stands - shawn mendes

chapter fifteen

lauren,

shawn didn't pick me up today because he had to be at school early for football today.

so i drove myself. but we're still going out tonight and i would tell him about the dancing school then.

"hey girl!" hailey caught up with me.

"hi" i said.

and we talked while we walked in.

"so cameron asked me out on a date tonight and i'm actually nervous. i've never been so nervous for a date with so-"

her voice was blocked out when i saw shawn talking to samantha and they were smiling.

it hurt.

so bad.

i was froze in my spot staring at the two of them together.

"lauren?" hailey said.

i came back to reality.

"yeah?" i said.

"are you okay? you kind of zoned out" she said.

"oh, no. i'm fine" i assured her.

"i was telling you about my date tonight" she continued.

"right, yeah" i said and she continued to tell me.

but all i could focus on was samantha and shawn.

i walked to my locker and hailey walked to hers to get her books for her first class.

i was standing alone.

"did you hear the rumor that shawn and samantha are hooking up again?" i heard someone say a few lockers down.

"yeah i just feel bad for his girlfriend. she actually thinks he cares about her but really shawn and samantha made a bet that shawn could get her to fall in love with him"

i wanted to cry. is that all i meant to him? i was just a stupid bet?

i felt my heart shatter into tiny little pieces and it really hurt. i wanted to go home and just drown myself in ice cream. i hated feeling this way.

"hey" i turned and saw shawn standing there. i really didn't want to see him today or maybe even ever after this.

"i have to go" i said and moved passed him.

"lauren" he said walking next to me.

"what's wrong?" he asked.

"i-i can't talk to you right now" i said lowly.

"did i do something?" he asked.

"i don't know, shawn. did you?" i asked him.

he clearly looked confused.

"i have to go" i said and walked away from him.

i walked into my chemistry class and sat where i have been but i avoided any eye contact with shawn.

he didn't touch my hair or send me any notes. he tried to talk to me a few times and he sent me a few text messages throughout the class but i ignored them all and him.

it felt like we were strangers all over again, and i hated the way that felt.

i payed attention to everything that our teacher was saying. i wrote down all the notes like i usually did. and when the bell rang, i stood up quickly and walked out the class as fast as i could but shawn still caught up with me.