the girl in the stands - shawn mendes

chapter thirty one

lauren,

i fell asleep thinking about shawn again and crying because i kissed him so much and i made the biggest mistake ever letting him walk away from me.

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i woke up the next morning at eight because i has class but i didn't go to class. i sat up in the bed and looked around.

"lauren?" chelsea said sitting up and looking at me. "are you okay?"

"no, i'm not"

"hey, i'm really sorry" she said. "i know you loved him"

"it doesn't matter now, does it?" i asked and got up.

"where are you going?" she asked me. "please don't go see him, it's a bad idea"

"i have class" i cut her off and walked out of our dorm without changing or anything. i put on some deodorant in my car and i fixed my hair a little and i drove to where shawn was staying.

i walked up the staircase because i didn't feel like taking the elevator and i went to his room and i knocked on the door loudly and waited a few seconds until the door opened and when it did, a shirtless shawn stood there.

"shawn-"

"what the hell do you want?" he asked me.

i bit my lip to refrain from crying. "i wanted to-"

"where'd you go?" i heard a female voice and a girl walked over but it wasn't just any girl, it was samantha and she was shirtless.

"oh" i said as my heart broke to a thousand tiny pieces. "oh, i-"

"lauren-"

"no, no" i said stopping shawn. "i-i get it, you hate me and this.. whatever, it's fine. i deserve that."

"lauren, it's not what you think"

"why does it matter what i think? we're not together right?"

i saw the pain all over his face when i said that but it hurt me to. "you broke up with me"

"i-i should go. this was a mistake" i said and turned and started to walk away.

"lauren!" i heard him call after me. "lauren!"

i ignored him and just got in my car and i didn't know what to do. where was i suppose to go now? i didn't have anyone to go to anymore because i've lost every good thing in my life.

i punched the steering wheel hard making the horn go off as tears streamed down my face and i sobbed.

i heard my car door open and i turned seeing samantha sitting there.

"what do you want? get out" i said harshly.

"i want to talk"

"well, i don't" i said.

"fine, so let me do the talking"

"get out of my car" i said.

"lauren. the quiet girl, the smart girl. the perfect, beautiful, straight A's highschool girl that everyone is secretly in love with. the girl who's easy to pick on, the girl who's sweet to everyone, who cares about everyone. the girl who falls in love hard and doesn't fall
out of it. the perfect girl who always gets what she wants. who has everything figured out, her future, her family, she has everyone's support and fights for everything that's right." samantha said.

"what do you want?"

"what happened in highschool is my immature self and now that we're out of highschool, i'm making changes and i wanted to start with you and just say that.. that i'm sorry for everything. for shawn mostly because that was really terrible of me and i'm so sorry. you two deserve each other, you two have something real. you have what i wanted with him but he will never look at me that way"

"then why are you with him?"

"he was telling you the truth, nothing happened. i wanted something to happen, i really tried but he turned me down because of you. shawn mendes will never look at any other girl the way he looks at you no matter what happens"

i didn't say anything to her, i just looked out my window.

"he did tell me what happened and let me just say, fight for him because if you stop, he's gonna think you're choosing that other guy"

"and why would i take advice from you?"

"because i've been in your situation and i lost the guy i wanted to be with. it sucks and nobody should feel that way ever. you don't have to like me, but just listen to me please"

and with that, she opened the car door and walked away leaving me alone. what was i suppose to do? take her advice? i mean, she was pretty reasonable but she's samantha. she's the girl who ruined my relationship with shawn in the first place, twice. aren't i suppose to hate her? i do hate her? so why is she acting like an innocent girl who's been hurt too much? all this thinking is giving me a headache.

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