Courting Hal (Belle Fille Series #1)

Kabanata 16

Kabanata 16

As soon as makarating kami sa mall, dumiretso kami ng Starbucks. Umupo kami sa pinaka-dulong table.

Nag-order si Hal ng isang frappe at coffee. Bumili din sya ng brownie,ensaymada at donut.

"Thank you" medyo di pa rin ako sanay na ganito sya. Nasanay kasi ako na para syang freezer.

"No, I should be the one thanking you" aniya at uminom sa in-order niyang kape.

Tahimik lang kaming kumakain, nangangapa pa kami sa katahimikan.

"Playgirl ka ba?" Biglaang tanong nya. That caught me off guard. Hindi agad ako naka-sagot.

"Yes" I admitted, why do I feel ashamed dahil inamin ko sakanya na playgirl ako.

"You shouldn't be, it doesn't suit you. Well, that's just my opinion." He said at nagkibit balikat muna bago kumain ng brownie.

"Masakit kasi e" I finally decided to open up. I cannot contain these feelings any longer. Malapit na akong sumabog.

"Why?" He curiously asks as he leaned forward,determined to hear what I have to say.

"Let's just say, I was heartbroken. I fell inlove with the wrong guy. He played with me without me even noticing. And the worst part is, he's my friend. Ilang beses nya akong niloko, nambabae at harap-harapan pa. And stupid me, my young heart decided to forgive him, mahal ko eh. But he did it again, that time sawang-sawa nako, I felt so much hatred sakanya. So I decided na iparamdam din sa iba kung anong naramdaman ko. Selfish it may sound pero I found satisfaction in hurting other's feelings" I said non-stop,already on the verge of tearing up.

"I understand, but, instead of hurting others isn't it much better to move on and show everyone that you can handle the pain?" His voice sounds so soothing in my ears. It calms my heart and my soul.

Napahikbi ako sa sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko.

Kinapa ko ang bag ko to find for a handkerchief. Sh*t nakalimutan ko pang magdala!

"Here.." Nakita kong iniabot ni Hal ang panyo nya, nahihiya man dahil I let my self breakdown infront of him, kinuha ko pa rin iyon.

"Come to think of it, hindi ikaw ang kawalan.You're beautiful, you can find a guy worthy of your love, yung hindi ka sasaktan." He sincerely said, concern laced in his voice.

Na-appreciate ko ang concern nya, pinunasan ko ang luha ko and tried ny hardest to stop my tears from falling.

Nang medyo kumalma na ako, I looked up to smile at him.

"Maybe you're right, I'm too blinded by my hatred na hindi ko na alam ang tama sa mali. That I've hurt a lot of people."

It's time to let go, the time to change and move on.

"That's right, hindi mo deserve masaktan so be free. I-enjoy mo lang ang buhay mo."

I smiled brightly at him, medyo naliwanagan na ako sa mga wrong doings ko. I just need closure.

"Yan! You should smile more often." Wow nagsalita ang laging nakangiti.

I frowned, "You're the one who should smile a lot, para naman hindi ka magmukhang statue at freezer." Natatawa kong pahayag a ini-stretch ang lips nya to form a smile.

He stayed silent. Suddenly naalala ko kung anong ginagawa ko. Napabitaw akong bigla dahil sa kahihiyan.

"Freezer? How come?" Kumunot ang noo nya at nagtatakang tumingin sa akin.

"Ang cold mo kasi HAHAHAHA. Everytime na tinitignan kita parang magyeyelo ako sa tingin mo" i admitted, medyo natawa sya and he rubbed his chin like he was trying to dig deeper on his memories.

"Ganoon ba ako? Siguro pag malalim ang iniisip ko, tsaka di pa tayo gaanong close non eh!" Depensa nya at kumain sa pagkain namin.

So close na pala kami? Hahaha

"Pero atleast ngayon may nakikita na akong pagbabago. You're not that Stone-Faced Hal at Freezer na nakilala ko."

Nagtawanan lang kami at inubos na ang in-order namin.

Magsi-six na nung lumabas kami ng mall. I can see the Eye of Pampanga from here.

The Ferris Wheel is accented with colorful lights. Nakaka-engganyo sumakay.

"You look sad" Hal said from beside me.

I just smiled, a bitter one.

"I can't let you go home feeling so gloomy" aniya at hinila na ang kamay ko.

Tumatakbo kami ngayon mula sa parking lot papunta sa may Sky Ranch.

Tinignan ko ang kamay ko na hawak nya. I can feel slight tingles just from holding it.

Para kaming si Romeo at Juliet kung saan tumatakbo kami para takasan ang mga taong humahabol sa amin.

It may sound romantic but it can't. May girlfriend sya. I felt bitter just by thinking of it.

I have to restrain myself.

I need to love myself first.

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