Courting Hal (Belle Fille Series #1)

Kabanata 31

Kabanata 31

"I'm letting you go"

He said in a weakened tone. I have no idea how I should react and what to feel. I'm disappointed and at the same time relieved. Disappointed because he did not fight for the girl he loves. Masyado yatang mataas ang tingin ko sakanya? Ang akala ko handa niyang gawin ang lahat para sa taong mahal niya. Relieved because he did not have the courage and strength to press forward. That finally, a gate is slightly opening for me to enter. A gate to his heart.

"I'm sorry Hal, but we both need this, it's for the greater good." She bid him farewell and left him there. Walang ganang bumalik sa bench si Hal. He seemed like a zombie,with his shoulders slumped and had his head down.

Naawa ko siyang pinagmasdan, then suddenly I felt angry at myself, naisip ko na baka may lalaki din akong nagawan ng ganito. I was ruthless when it comes to relationships. I am irrational and impulsive, hindi ko na pinagtutuonan ng pansin ang nararamdaman ng taong iyon because of the satisfaction it brought me.

"You can come out now,Clio"

His sudden call startled me, nag-aalinlangan pa akong lumabas since I was too embarrassed that he caught me stalking and eavesdropping on him. Nag-angat siya ng tingin at ni-level ang aming mga mata. His eyes were shining, and a tear is almost dropping. He gave me a weak smile and motioned me to sit beside him.

"I'm sorry." panimula ko, looking around the place to avert his gaze. Nang lumingon akong muli, nakita kong nakatuon na ang kaniyang pansin sa mga kamay niyang pinagsiklop at marahang pinaglaruan ang kaniyang mga daliri.

"It's okay, it's not a big deal anyways." He said cooly, but I can see through him. He was lying, he just said that to look tough on me. Ramdam ko parin ang lungkot sa kaniyang boses.

"I didn't mean to follow you around, I just got curious kaya sinundan kita." pag-amin ko, bravely looking at his dark cold eyes. He smirked at my confession but instantly fades as his eyes diverted to somewhere.

"Sorry, you got to witness that..." he trailed, sadness laced with his tone. I gently placed my hand in his. I think it's time, as his friend, to console him. Malumanay kong hinawakan ang kamay niya, they were big, rough and warm completely opposite to mine which is small, smooth and cold.

"I just want you to know that you're a very kind and loving person. Kung ano man ang nasaksihan ko ngayon, mga nalaman ko at mga naging problema ng girlfriend mo sayo..I mean Ex-girlfriend, hindi pa rin mababago ang tingin ko sayo." I sincerely said, doing my best to look at him straight in his black orbs which seems to be trapping me into it.

He let out a heavy sigh, and held onto my hand which was place in his, slightly clenching it. I worriedly smiled at him. Pakiramdam ko gustong-gusto niya ng mag break down but he was shy because I'm a girl. And that's lame for a guy.

"It's okay, ibuhos mo lang yan, I won't judge. Atsaka, hindi mabuting kinikimkim mo ang sakit mo ng loob." Pabulong kong saad, he glanced at me through to his glassy eyes, I smiled reassuringly at him. Nodding my head, his tears began to roll in his cheeks.

"I feel so useless and pathetic." panimula niya, drawing closer to me, placing his forehead on my shoulders. My heart beat began to accelerate, he is so close to me and I bet he can hear the thumping of my heart. I hesitantly place my hand on his back, rubbing them up and down to soothe him. I also  whispered sweet nothings to him, para naman mabawasan ang sakit na nararamdaman niya.

"I've already noticed that she is becoming cold to our relationship, pero pinagsawalang bahala ko lahat yon. I was never intimate with her, because I thought that's what she want. She wanted a mature relationship kaya ganoon ang ginawa ko." He said through sobs, his back uncontrollably shaking because of his heavy breathing.