BCS 3: Innocent Mistake

Chapter 29

This story contains violence, aggression, abuse, prolonged torture, romanticized rape, profane languages, suicide, and murder.

~Sorry~

It feels like forever to stay bedridden for three days. The King doesn't allow me to go out somewhere aside from my room. Maayos naman ang aking pakiramdam ngunit hindi pa rin ako makapaniwalang nagawa kong makatulog sa loob ng apat na buwan.

I missed the snowfalls, it's been four months since I'm sleeping and I don't even witness it fully. Sinabi ng doctor na na comatose ako. Iyon siguro ang tawag sa aking ginawang matagal na pagtulog. The doctor said I am critical when I've brought into him.

My wounds got infected and I've been into hypothermia, barely breathing as he revived me. Bukod doon ay may mga baling buto rin ako at iba pang hindi ko na matandaan pa sa mga sinabi ng doctor.

Ang aking boses ay unti-unting bumabalik sa kabila ng pamamaga ng aking lalamunan. But I can't still fully speak. Sa kalagitnaan ng aking pagsasalita ay nawawala iyon. The King forbids me to speak and even to forbid me to see anyone except the doctor.

May ibinigay na maliit na notebook at ballpen sa akin ang Hari. It helps a lot when I asked how are Amory and Erphina. He just simply answered to me that they are fine and that they are busy working on the kitchen.

Gumaan ang aking pakiramdam sa nalamang iyon. Ngunit gusto ko rin silang makita at makausap mismo. When I asked the King for it he just simply said no. Wala na rin akong magagawa pa roon.

It's also been three days that the King often stays in my room and I am always not comfortable around him.

Not comfortable because his presence always intimidates me.

Ngunit sa kaniya ay tila wala lamang iyon na naroon ako.

He's still busy working something on his laptop, silently. He's really a busy person though.

May pagkakataong namamangha ako sa kakatitig sa seryoso niyang mukha.

There's the time that his brows furrowed, his forehead knotted and his jaw clenched on something while looking on his laptop or phone.

Minsan ay nahuhuli niya akong nakatingin sa kaniya. It always sends me to a heart attack as I quickly looked away. Face heated and heart beats faster.

Ngayong araw ay tahimik ang buong paligid. Ang Hari'y naroon na sa maliit na mesa sa aking silid at nagpatuloy sa kaniyang trabaho

It's another day and the hollow feeling in my heart grow even more. I always miss Margaret. It still hurts. It hurts more, that I'll never see her again. I am not there when she buried.

I've been on my bed and stares at the ceiling. The keyboard of the laptop is the only thing I heard inside my room except the tweeting of birds somewhere outside the window.

Ang mga nagyari sa akin ay muling naalala. Tila iyon na lamang ang laging laman ng aking isip maging sa mga panaginip.

Kung paanong nakita ko ang pagkamatay ni Maggie na wala man lamang akong nagawa para iligtas siya.

Those become my nightmare, been part of my nightmare.

Maybe I really deserved Ariela's punishment since I did not save Margaret. I've been thinking those too hard. Hindi na napansin ang pagtigil ng tunog nang pagtipa ng keyboard ng laptop.

A deep sigh only makes me sits straight on my bed. I started panicking and fidgeting my fingers as I met his intense glare. My lips open and close at the same time to supposed to question that forming on my head. Napaatras ang aking katawan nang makita ang pag-angat ng kaniyang kamay.