" wow " I muttered
wow was honestly all I could say .. because why now? Is he just saying this because of the predicament he in? I mean he should have been recognized I was the one for him. & trust him? When I did all I got in return was a broken heart .
" I know this is a lot to take in but you really have to trust me on this. "
" Hey, visitor time is almost up .. you have 5 min left " said the nurse as she checked his vitals
I was glad she came, because this whole night turned out to be something I didn't imagine it to be . I looked at him for one last time, and left without saying another word.
My best friend was waiting on me in the waiting area, soon she seen me she walked quickly towards me and bombarded me with questions . Some of the questions I didn't even have an answer too..
" What happened to him? "
" What did you guys discuss? "
" Were you crying? " of course you was .. why though?
" Because you miss him? "
"Because he in this situation? " She asked ..
The truth be told I was crying because of both those reasons .. seeing him made me realize how much I miss him & how I can't move on.. and seeing him in the situation he is in made me vulnerable, something I promised myself I would never be around him again.
I answered all of Jade questions with short replies.. she sensed that I was totally upset , & too upset to drive so she drove me home in her car & left my car at the hospital ..
We finally made it to my house .. I went straight to my bathroom to get in the shower. I felt icky from all the crying. Stepping into the shower and feeling the hot water running down my skin made me feel so relaxed, but I couldn't help but think back to what Marcell said.. "I did all this to protect you "
Protect me from what? Was all I could think.. was he in some sort of trouble? Or was he just protecting my heart, which he didn't do a good job at.. It was all so weird to me. why would I be the first person on his call list? Why was he protecting me? Why did his wife not seem so surprised about him being laid up in the hospital bed. I didn't know but I will soon get to the bottom of it all.
I turned the water off, grabbed my towel and wrapped it around me tightly. I walked into my bedroom and Jade was laying across my bed watching " All American " on Netflix .
After I put clothes on, I joined her in the bed. We watched two episodes in silence, then she cut it off and moved to the end I was at. She was parting her mouth to say something but I stopped her.
" Jade if anything negative is coming out of your mouth please save it. " I said with a sign
Jade was a very outspoken person. She said whatever was on her mind. She had no filter and sometimes I hated that about her.
" all I was going to say was, everything will be okay.. pray about it.. pray tomorrow be better than today. "
Which I did. I prayed that God removed all the hurt, I prayed he watched over Marcell and the situation he was in. I prayed about any and everything. That was what I needed . I needed a LONGGG talk with God.
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The next morning I woke up in a better mood, with a slight headache. But of course Jade had me a aspirin and a bottle of water on my night stand with a note saying " I had to go take care of somethings, but I love you and make yesterday jealous of today :) "
This was the Jade I grew to know and love ..
