I laid in bed, blinds closed , curtains closed , tv off , lamps off , phone off . I just laid there , drowning in my own tears .
I was so tired of crying, but I couldn't stop the tears from pouring . I was tired of being helpless . I was tired of stressing and crying over the same thing.
I knew I deserved better, but don't know why I won't get better . Randell had a soul tie on me, and I need to release it . I have to go back to the old me, the happy me.
I wish I didn't let this love shit get to me . I should of listened to my parents when they told me, Randell wasn't what I needed . I should of listened to my mind when he first cheated on me.
Another baby? Another human being? Another woman? While I'm pregnant?
Wow ..
I knew Randell was capable of some crazy things, but I didn't think this would be one of them.
ring ring ring ..
my doorbell would ring throughout the whole house every 5 mins, and I just lay here. stuck. drowning. miserable.
I didn't have the strength to get up & see who was at my door. I didn't have the strength to do anything, but lay here and sulk in my misery. Randell left the house 4 hrs ago, and since then I been laying in bed, thinking.
ring ring ring ..
" OPEN THE DOOR JADE "
" ughhh! " I yelled , I wish people would just leave me alone and let me be. They see I'm not answering the door so why not go away? I sat up, and threw my legs to the side of the bed & sat on the edge for a minute.
Whoever was at my door, was going to get a cussing of they lifetime. I got up, and started stomping towards my front door.
I unlocked my door, and swung it open.
" Why do you keep banging on my door REPEATEDLY! You see I didn't come, so why not GO AWAY! HAVE common sense! Damn! " I spat out
" Who you talking to? When did Casper start coming around this bitch? " Yasmine said while rolling her eyes . I quickly embraced her into a hug, I didn't expect it to be her because her and august been shacking up lately.
" best friend i been needing you so much. " I cried , I haven't been texting or calling yasmine lately, because we both honestly been busy with our own life.
*** yasmine pov ***
" best friend I been needing you so much " Jade cried while embracing me into a hug.
I wrapped my arms around her, and let her cry on my shoulder while I was standing in this 90 degree weather. We haven't been talking lately because we both been doing our own thing.
I felt bad for not calling her and checking up on her like I should've. I started rubbing circles in her back, because I could see she was having a hard time with her breathing. She was overwhelmed & could hurt the baby, and that broke my heart the most.
" Calm down jade. It's okay, you're okay. " I whispered
" it- it's not okay " she screamed, while tears continued to stream down her face. I could hear the hurt laced all in her words, and I knew Randell was the cause. He called me some hours ago, explaining to me what happened , and I got here quickly as I could. Disappointed was an understatement. I never too much liked Randell but he made my bestfriend happy as ever and that was all that mattered.
But people change & things change, and I honestly hated his guts. He reminded me of Marcell so I understood the pain Jade was experiencing.
" Yes it will be. you're strong, you have overcame so many obstacles this lil set back ain't shìt to you, now pls let's go in the house, my lace about to start coming up. " I exclaimed while slowly pushing her so I could get in the house .
Jade let me go, and walked to her living room, with me following behind her. She took a seat and I sat beside her. Jade looked horrible, her hair was all over her head, she had tears all over her face & snot running out her nose.
I hated seeing her like this, no woman deserved to go through this. For somebody to have a baby on you? that's the worse pain ever.
I crossed my legs, and put my hand under jade chin , she is a queen and she needed to realize that. " I'm sorry I haven't been here as much as I should've . But jade I know you're a strong ass woman, who can handle anything. This a minor set back, for a major comeback. God kept giving you signs, and you ignored them. Please don't ignore this one, it's time to let go and move on. Yea I know it's easier said then done but you deserve so much more than you give yourself credit for. It's time to live for you, it's time to live for Emory. Pick your head up baby, before you crown fall. " I said while wiping a few of her tears .
Jade was a beautiful woman , and could have any man she wanted. She needed to realize that.
" thank you. " she said while hugging me.
We stayed like that for at least 7 minutes. I continued to rub circles in her back, til her breathing slowed down. " I really appreciate you yasmine " she said. " You have always been there for me, and I can't thank you enough. I'm so grateful to have someone like you in my life. I just don't know how I'll get through this. A baby? yasmine a fucking baby? Seriously? He did me like that forreal. " she said. You could feel and hear her heartbreak with every word she said while tears threatened to come out her eyes.
" A baby jade. He did you like that . Accept it, and move on. Everybody is not meant to be in your life for a long ass time. They either a blessing or a lesson. And sadly he was and is a lesson. Be thankful he came in your life and showed you what you don't need. Be thankful he came in your life and was your storm, because moving forward it'll be all rainbows and sun, with a little rain here and there, but there won't be anymore storms. "
" I love you. " Jade said.
" and I love you too now let's get ice cream and go watch greys anatomy , and I know you got some already In your fridge fat ass " I said while laughing.
" bitch idk how you know! " she laughed showing those pretty teeth of hers. " but cmon let's go " she said while racing me to the kitchen.
For the rest of the night we ate snacks , and watched greys anatomy while cuddling. Sometimes all you need is a friend.
* probably ending this soon *
