Jade Pov
" do you wanna build a snowmannnnnnnn " I sung in Eddie face , " or ride our bikes around the hallll?! " I said while standing up on the bed and using the remote as my microphone.
" Please sit down you sound horrible. " He said while laughing , and eating a airhead. " yOU sOuNd hOrRiBle " I mocked him.
" cmon sit down mamas, let's talk. " He said while motioning for me to take a seat beside him. I followed his instructions, while getting my bag of hot popcorn off his night stand and opening em. " Okay so where you want to start? " I asked while popping some popcorn in my mouth.
" You already told me who he was , and how y'all met. I want to know where it all went wrong? "
I sighed , " In high school it's always been me and another girl in his life. She lied on him, did horrible things to him and he would still sometimes leave me for her. When I first got pregnant he was excited , he was so ready to be a father, but eventually she eased her way back into the picture and it just went from there. He would stay out late at nights , im assuming with her , but after a couple weeks his phone started ringing at different times of the night , all different numbers. Sometimes I would pick his phone up while he go to the bathroom and see nudes from numerous women. Some nights he didn't even come home. I never said anything though, because I didn't want him to leave me. I have nobody , my family always working or out of town, my best friend moved miles away , so it was just me and him. I didn't want him to leave me, I didn't want to feel alone whatsoever , so I kept quiet and let it happen. That's probably where I went wrong, allowing him to treat me like I wasn't Shit. But, I thought it all stopped when he came back down here to win me over , because eventually I left the Bronx and came out here to get a new start, and he came weeks later trying to win me back over which he obviously did. " at this point tears were streaming down my face , my nose was getting snotty, and i was hiccuping. Just looking a complete mess.
I knew I just looked a hot ass mess , but Eddie just started wiping my tears. Reassuring me that it was going to be okay , and telling me to take my time. We made eye contact , and in that moment I wanted to kiss him, to fuck the shit out of him to forget all about Randel. But, I knew it wasn't something that I couldnt do , carrying another man seed. So I just put my head down , and continued. " Anyways , sorry.. but we went out that night , and somehow someway something in his stupid ass head told him to leave his pregnant girlfriend by herself , and go dance with other bitches. That night I was fed up, I was fed up being played with, because he had the audacity to do the shit while I was in the same room as him. That night I realized he didn't give one fuck about me. And it hurts so bad Eddie! It hurts so bad to be carrying his seed , and he still don't appreciate me! I did everything for this man, held it down while he went to the army! Took care of his mom plenty of times , I did all this shit out of love , love that he couldnt reciprocate. " I said while crying. Nobody understood how in distraught I was , how broken I was. I try not to stress about it, I try to be level headed and peaceful for my baby sake. But , it's hard when I constantly think of him and all me and his memories. When I constantly reminisce, about the old us. When everything reminds me of him, when I'm carrying HIS Seed!
My mom always told me " don't let sex make you a mother , before love make you a wife. " and I never listened , I should of listened I should of took what she said into consideration, because now I am a single mother, something I said I would never be.
Eddie pulled me into a hug , and just me let me cry on his shoulder. I was grateful, that he was someone I could vent too, because no telling how long I would of held this in if it wasn't for him. Right now, my mind was the most toxic thing ever. It was a war between it & my heart. And right now, my mind was winning. My mind is telling me to do damage to Randell, to fuck Eddie while I was pregnant and make a video and send it to him, the thought of this idea wasn't so bad. Sometimes I would be like yea ima do it, and then my heart comes to play and tell me I can't fight fire with fire.
No one knew how bad I wanted Randell to hurt, how bad I wanted him to feel the pain he put me through for so long. But, I knew I couldn't do anything foul as that, I knew I couldn't use my body to get revenge. In due time, I will know what to do. In due time , Randell won't exist to me. In due time, this hurt will be over .
" It's okay , I'm here now okay? You good. You got me " Eddie said whispering in my ear, while rubbing circles into my back.
I slowly lifted my head, and we both were staring at eachother with lustful eyes. I secretly hoped , Eddie felt what I felt. He slowly leaned in , and I just sat there waiting for his lips to touch mine. In a matter of seconds , we were kissing. The kiss was so different , I felt a spark. I felt butterflies in my stomach, I felt the feeling I felt when I first met randell. I slowly deepened the kiss, while wrapping my Arms around his neck and straddling him. I could feel his dick get hard through his jeans, so I slowly grinded against him, while he let out low groans between the kisses I started to lay on his neck.
I reverted my lips back to his , while he glided his hands up my shirt and groped one of my breasts. His hands , quickly turned into his tongue, he gently swirled his tongue around my swollen nipple, while softly biting it every so often. He sucked my titties so passionately , he took his time with my left and right.
" Ughhh " I moaned out lowly as he pushed me onto the bed while keeping my left breast in his mouth. He then started kissing my neck, while I felt his dick in between my legs , pressing against the black tights I had on.
Before I knew it, he was dragging my tights down with his teeth, while not taking his eyes off me.
