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You smell good" Randell said while embracing me into a hug. I hugged him back and then headed towards my room. I was still getting nervous around Randell. I thought I moved passed that phase, but iguess I'll never overcome it. Every time I see him, I get millions of butterflies in my stomach.
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" Damn break my bed! " I said while laughing at Randel attempt to hit a black flip on my bed . We were currently watching a 1000 ways to die . " I'm tryna break yo back "
" Really? Randel stop playing " I said while laughing, even though I wanted Randel to fuck me senseless I was nervous to tell him. I haven't had sex since he impregnated me, so it's been a while.
He licked his lips, and came to sit by me on the bed" Playing for what? I've been craving you mamas " , I chuckled, " Oh really? Just like you was craving that bitch at the club? "
" here we go. " He said
" Yea here we go. Randell I been doing a lot of thinking since we've been apart. & you only do me the way you do me is because I allow you. Like now, if I let you fuck me shit won't change. You'll go out and do the same shit you been doing, then ease your way back into my life . Then sweet talk me out of my panties, but this time you got the game fucked up."
" mmcht what you talking about Mane? Ian even tryna talk you out yo panties , im just telling you the real. I miss you jade , and I know I fucked up multiple times but I wanna fix us , I want to fix our family. "
" Fix our family? Fix us? Why now Randel? " Tears threatened to escape. But I was tired of crying & seeming weak.
" Today. After I found out we were having a babygirl, I knew I had to get my shit together. I'll kill a nigga if he ever try the shit that I did on my daughter . I see I put you through way too much shit, and you strong man. You strong as fuck, you overcame everything you were faced with. From my lying and cheating ways, from your parents divorce, and from this pregnancy. "
" I love you jade, I want you, I want us. Please give me another chance " He said while wiping my tears, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I wanted to hear these words for so long, and now he was finally expressing it. I secretly wished it was too late, I wished my feelings had changed and I hated his guts. But him expressing hisself to me just made me want him even more.
" How I know this time it'll be different? You cry the same cry every time. "
" Just let me prove it to you , let's start over baby. I promise to fix this. " He said while wrapping his arms around me , I laid my head in the crook of his neck and let the tears continue to flow.
I didn't know if I was going to forgive him or not. I felt like if I did he will continue to do me bad, but if I didn't he'll get tired of trying and move on for good.
" Randell I love you, I never stopped loving you. But, you broke me. You broke your promises, you fucking hurt me and then try to stitch me up with apologies and im tired. I really want to forgive you, I want us to be a family. But I can't take your lying, disrespect and cheating anymore. For now we can be friends, and go from there. "
" Friends? Yo jade if I wanted friends, I'll go make some frl. "
I scooted over so he could look at me in my eyes, " Well go make some then. Because that's all i want right now. I want us to fix us, and by doing that we have to start all over. "
He just nodded his head. I hope he was processing everything I was saying and understood where I was coming from.
