today was the day . The day I lost my baby boy. I was thankful jade was still in Atlanta because I know she would occupy me so I won't think about it. Lastnight auggie had an episode and slept in his bed, until the middle of the night .. I wanted to ask him what it was about but today was about me and my emotions .
When I woke up I had a text message from jade
" hey .. I ran to get a few things .. I know today is a depressing day for you, but pls don't worry . I'll be back shortly with a lot of your favorites ;) "
I put the note back down on my night stand , and went to brush my teeth. After I finished brushing my teeth and washing my face I went into the kitchen to find august sitting at the table eating a apple.
I fixed a bowl of cereal and took a seat in front of him. I begin eating my cereal while he finished up his apple.
He got up from the table to throw away the remainings of his apple and left out the kitchen.
I had no clue what his problem was, and I wasn't going to try to figure it out because I know I didn't do anything.
***
After I finished my cereal I went back into my room to watch greys anatomy until jade came back.
She came back with all of my favorite snacks.
Snickers
Icecream
Flaming hot chips
Pickles
And many more great snacks. We continued to watch greys anatomy in silence .. she didn't speak nor did I . I was grateful for the silence , that's all I needed. I didn't want to be bothered with questions or anything of that sort.
My mom and dad didn't know about my miscarriage. It's just something I couldn't bring myself to tell them. They told me about Marcell but I went against what they said, and now look. Years later I am single , I had a miscarriage , and I'm broken. They were right , but I didn't want to let them know that.
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During our binge watching I end up falling asleep for almost 3 hours. I over thought myself into a deep slumber . Waking up , I felt a hand around me. I knew it wasn't jade because she absolutely hated cuddling.
Turning over I came face to face to August . He was staring at me, he must been doing this for minutes now.
I was still upset at him .. so I got out the bed and went into the kitchen to find a snack , of course August followed along .
" what August ? " I said while he came and stood behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist
" I am sorry for the way I been acting . You did nothing, I just wanted to be left alone . "
" I get it. " I said with a sign
" and I know today was a depressing day for you, and I'm sorry that I couldn't be the shoulder you could cry on. I just knew if I was there I was going to be toxic towards the whole situation even though I can sort of relate " he said while pushing my hair to the side and laying a small kiss on my neck.
The small kiss turned into bigger ones with tongue added. The way he was licking and sucking on my neck I knew I was going to have passion marks.
" auggie stop " I moaned
" stop for what ma? " he said while he continued to kiss on my neck
" jade "
" she gone ma , now shhh " he said while sliding a hand into my sleeping shorts.
He started to rub my clit while I let out a large amount of moans and curse words .
" ouuuuu auggie " I moaned
" you like that? " he asked while plunging his index finger into my vagina while making a " come here " motion.
He did that until I came over his fingers, he then removed his hands from out of my shorts and licked his fingers .
He picked me up and sat me on the kitchen counter while kissing me.
" take these off " he said while tugging on my shorts
I pulled my shorts off and threw them on the floor. He then pulled me to the edge of the counter while telling me to lay back a little.
I couldn't believe I was fixing to do something this bold. On my kitchen counter , I was going to need a lot of bleach and other cleaning supplies for this counter after we were done .
while making eye contact with me, August starting easing his penis inside me, while never breaking eye contact.
" ssst ouch " I moaned
August continued to push it inside of me until it was all the way in.
He then just sat there and let me get adjusted to his size once again. After 5 minutes he pulled it out, than shoved it back into me..
" ouuuuuu daddy " I moaned while wrapping my arms around him
" im sorry ma "
" you accept my apology? "
" ughhhh ouuu " I moaned
" I said I'm sorry " he said while going deeper and faster
" okay baby "
" you accept it? " he asked while taking it out once again and then slowly putting it back in while going deep and slow
" yes I do ouu deeper "
And he did exactly that . After 3 rounds we both were tired and decided to call quits . That was the best make up sex ever. Maybe we should argue a lot more.
August went to go get a warm towel to wipe me with.
After 3 mins he came back & he wiped me and I got up to clean up our mess.
***
After we both took showers and cleaned up , we went into his room for a change and watched " I spit on your grave " August said this movie was a classic for him , and I never watched it so I wanted to see why he liked it..
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After a while we both fell asleep .
