Different Life (Matthew Espinosa)

Goodbye

*Bobby POV*

I walked in the hospital.

"Umm I'm here for a Erin Scott." I said.

"She's on floor 7 room 74." The woman said.

I walked to the elevator and took it up while I looked for my moms room.

When I walked in I cried. I've been so oblivious. She cut her hair, she was loosing weight, she had this boyfriend named Taylor which I don't actually think she's was going to see but actually doctors appointments or kemo therapy. She was awoke. I went over to her slowly and sat down on the chair provided.

I grabbed her hand and we sat there and cried silently.

"Why mom?" I asked my voice cracking.

"I didn't want you to be upset with me baby. You were so happy." She said.

"When were you diagnosed mom?" I asked not looking at her but down at our hands.

"A year ago." She said and in came more tears.

"Are you serious mom." I said while the tears fell on her hospital bed.

"I'm so sorry baby. Sing to me please." She said and I was not going to deny my mother, not on her death bed I wasn't.

I climbed in the hospital bed and she laid her head on my chest.

"Thee other night dear when I lay sleeping I dreamed I held you in my arms, but when I woke dear I was mistaken so I hung my head and cried" I trembly sung.

Here comes everyone's favorite part. But the part that makes my heart break and allows more tears than ever to fall.

"You are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey you'll never know dear how much I love you please don't take my sunshine away." My voice cracked when I said 'away'.

"I'll always love you, you make me happy and no one else could come I between but now you've left me to love another you have shined all of my dreams." I patted her hair down with my shaky hand.

Here it comes again.

"You are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away. " I sung voice cracking twice again on the last sentence.

"You told me once dear you really loved me, and no one else could come between but now you've left me to love another you have shattered all of my dreams. You are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey, you'll never no dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away."

I had a big lump in my throat I just couldn't swallow down I was hurting myself but I kept going.

"In all my dreams dear you seem to leave me. When I awake my poor heart pains." I sung.

I only have a verse and a half left and I will force myself to sing it. But I start to tremble bad. And the tears finally blocked out my vision.

"But when you come back and take away the pain. I will take all of the blame. You are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away." I ended kissing her forehead.

I watched the heart moniter decrease until it flat lined and that's when I broke down.

She's gone. I'm never ever gonna see her again. No more memories. No more fun. I will truly miss you mother. I was crying really loud. The doctors came in. I started to hyperventilate. They tried to calm me down.

"Time of death?" A doctor said.

"6:14." The other man said.

I cried. That's was her birthday. I couldn't breathe. All I know was that black surrounded me and I was out like a light.

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I woke up in a hospital bed.

"Where's my mom." I said and the nurse that was checking something to the right of me.

It's honestly a shame I don't know what it is because I am learning to be a surgeon at school but that doesn't really matter to me a at this moment.

"Was your mother the persons room you were in when you past out." And I simply nodded.

"She is being taken to the morgue." The lady said and walked out.

So this is real. I didn't think it was a nightmare but reality is an illusion some times and I just wanna make sure I'm not going crazy. I got up and grabbed my belongings.

I needed to get away from here. I went home. I went in my moms room. I'd never been in here a lot, she's always been in mines. I looked around the room and photos of me and her and me, her and my dad etched the walls. I ran my fingers over them. I grabbed a photo of just her and held it close to my heart. I climbed in her bed and looked at the picture outlining it with my finger while tears surely dropped on it.

I have no relations to my mother or fathers side of the family. They all died off. My moms dead. My dads dead. I might as well be next right. I have no one. NO ONE. My phone started to ring and I just grabbed it throwing it to floor shattering it.

I need to be alone. I need somebody. I don't make any sense. I refuse to let myself think fucking crazy.

I get under her covers and curl up into a ball. Why now? Why did my life have to take a sharp turn now. It's just to much. Did I do anything to to make this bad thing happen to me.

*Matt POV*

Why isn't she answering? She said she'd call me back.

"Gwen is she answering for you?" I asked.

"Matt for the umpteenth time. No. I'm calling Kelly you call David." She said and I quickly called him.

"Hey Matt." He said.

"Have you talked to Bobby?" I asked.

"No I was on my way to her dorm now I haven't seen her all day." He said.

"Well can you stay on the phone with me until you make it there?" I asked.

"Sure I'm rounding the corner now." He said.

I heard him knock on the door. Then I heard him beat on the door.

"She keeps a spare key on the ledge of her door. She told me that one time." I said.

"Got it." He said and I guess opened the door.

"She's not here." He said.

"Fuck. Can you please tell me if you see her around campus I'm getting worried." I said and he agreed I then hung up.

"What did Kelly say?" I asked Gwen.

"She said she's been looking for her all morning and she couldn't ding her." Gwen said with worry in her eyes.

"David just checked her room and she's not there.." I said panicking.

"Matt. Please calm down she's ok. She's going to be okay." She kept saying but I didn't believe her.

Me and Bobby had this connection. And she is not okay. And I am not okay about that. Damn she's making me worry. If she'd just pick up her damn phone. What is she got kidnapped. God what would I do.

"Matt you're trembling. Stop!" Gwen yelled and I dropped to the ground with minimum tears coming out my eyes.

"I know she's not fine. If I would've dropped out I would know where she was. What she was doing. Everything. But I don't because I'm still fucking here in this stupid ass school." I yelled and this time Gwen couldn't calm me down.

I was hurt. The blame has been put on me by myself. I should be there for her.