Alive

•Thirty Three•

"No" you simply answered.

His face looked surprised "Y/N-" he began but you cut him off cut him off quickly.

"-I'm better now though" you said fighting your pain by smiling "Now what do you want for dinner" you asked walking towards him.

He still was in shock "M-Mhm~I'm ok with anything" he answered softly slowly losing emotions.

You nodded and lead him to the kitchen "Kimbap it is" you said and began to cook as he watched you.

After a half hour dinner was made and set on the table were the both of you sat, he ate while you more played lightly with your food feeling sick to your stomach.

He stoped eating and got up loudly walking over to you and putting a hand on your shoulder pushing you so that you were looking at him "Enough, don't lie to me-tell me whats going on" he said harshly, clearly upset.

You wanted to push him away but couldn't, instead you looked away feeling sicker. "My problem is with alcohol-".

"Bullshit" he nearly yelled "-Y/N i'm not stupid. You drink wine with me sometimes-" he began.

The yelling hurt your head but you ignored it "Everyone has there past Jaebeom-" you yelled and then covered your mouth. "I-I'm sorry I-" you began but he cut you off.

You instantly felt a sharp and stinting pain on your left cheek. He slapped you hard. "Go to your room" he yelled.

Already knowing you pressed to many of his buttons, you stood up speachless and feeling like you were going to cry. As you walked to your room you could hear dishes breaking, the loud and ear shadering sound finally broke you.

You closed your door gently behind you and held your cheek falling to the floor. "I'm sorry" you whispered and passed out due to the amount of anxsity.

When you woke up it was around midnight and you were not in your own bed, you were not even in your room. Slowly you looked around seeing that you were in his room and in the corner at his desk was Jaebeom.

You thought of what to say but nothing came out other than a small wimper which caught his attention.

"Lets talk" he said seaming more calm and got up siting on the bed in front of you. Not wanting to get him upset you just nodded and let him talk.

"I never wanted to have you see me like that. If this is going to work Y/N you need to tell me everything. Understand." he asked grabbing your hand slowly and lightly.

You took a deep breath in before speaking. "Drinking is okay to me but when people are drunk its hard-" you could feel your throat beginning to close up. He was patient and listening. "My appa forced me to get drunk with him when I was younger-".

Jaebeom cut you off "Why didn't you tell me this before. I don't want to hurt you" he said. It was obvious that he was feeling guilty about all of this.

A smile slightly crepe onto your face which confused him. "It's okay, we all have things we need to get over" you said softly and kissed his cheek. "Lets go to sleep" you whispered and layed down dragging him with you.