Alive

•Fifty Two•

His eyes said all of the words you needed to know, he didn't look like he cared from the outside but you knew.

Jaebeom went to kiss you but instead you just hugged him tightly "What are you-" he began but you said nothing.

After a minute he hugged you back holding back his emotions. "He died" he whispered softly.

You looked up at him softly with a smile "I know it hurts- but it will get better". At this point you were trying not to cry yourself sense you had already lost your parents.

At first he smiled but it faded and a tear ran down his face "As much as I hated him- I wanted him to meet his first grandchild" Jaebeom whispered.

Tears ran down your face "I know how it feels-but if you believe it, he will be still here with us" you said wiping his face and taking his hand putting it on your stomach.

You knew the pain of losing a parent--in fact you lost two of them yourself. Your brain began to feel like mush as you slowly lost all feelings, emotionally as well as physically. In you head you could still hear the sound of the wailing sirens of fire trucks, police cars, and two ambulance's. You could remember the call you had gotten from the police stating that you parents were dead. Even if you were young in the end. You could still hear the television having a report about it on the news.

"Now live reporting from the seen of death. Tonight a younger couple found dead after footage has been found and seen by the local police. Currently all we know that is the dead couple died due to a speeder crashing into them and enclosing them between a truck and themselves. The deceased couple are Lee Ling and Jiyoon. More will be reported after this break."

The report just kept playing over and over again in your head as if it was on a loop, a never ending loop. The only way for it to end; or so it seamed, would be to die. Lay in the grave and not remember anything.

Even though this all happened when you were just barely able to understand anything, and knew nothing about life, you almost could see what happened even if you were not really there yourself.

You could hear Jaebeom speaking to you but was in your own head-reliving the day.

"Y/N" he asked confused. His touch becoming stronger and stronger until you snapped out of it.

The tingling sensation of tears were all you could feel now. "Huh-" you responded confused, having no idea that you had been out of the moment for so long.

"What happened" Jaebeom asked consumed with the feeling that he had done something wrong.

Quickly you wiped your face and showed a small smile. "Nothing don't worry. Just remembered something I wish I could forget" your smile became slightly weaker but was still prominent.