Poem

Essay - #1

Title: THE SORTS: Quick Realization

So i was on my me time here in starbucks sipping my favorite blend mocha frappe along with ham and cheese croissant. i got a pack of marlboro. despite of having an e-cigarette, i just cant get rid of tasting the real taste of sm0ke.

While i was sitting, i let my eyes wander around. looking at different tables filled with people.

I saw a group of friends and it seems like they are preparing for a get-away weekend spent in the province, far away from the pollution ang noise that only manila can cater.

It made me realize that i miss those times spent with friends. where are my group of friends? i haven't seen them for quiet a while now. the last time i spent time with them was so long ago that it already created cob-webs in my mind.

My friends whom i grew up with and spent my elementary and high school years together. gone are those days but i wanna go back there. when life was filled with no hesitations. it seems though that the years have added much on our maturity.

Then i saw these lovers. so sweet. a simple date over a cup of coffee. maybe a best time to talk about things, plans, which me and my girlfriend haven't done for a while.

Maybe i can relate to what they are trying to imply, a solo time with my partner. but i must admit. i am not so good with dates such as them. i am n0t the person who can spend time a partner and end a day worth remembering. maybe im n0t just so into it.

Then i saw these two tables filled with girl-friends. and i realize, i haven't spent time with my buddy (thats what i called my bestfriend) since 2008. what i appreciate about having a time with my buddy is the fact that i can c0nfide to him, openly tell him my life scenarios, burst out my anger and grudge without expecting any violent reactions. i can be me, be real, be who i am needless if i am on my best or worst. he is my replica and i feel like i am talking to myself. so be it.

Lots of things has just reminded me while sitting in this hard and back-aching chair and hearing the roaring sounds of the vehicles around me. am i pathetic to spend such l0nely time? i asked myself if i have been isolated but, no, i am n0t.

And hour and 13 mins to go. im going to fetch my partner. or no. we broke up. for her yeah we did broke up but n0t for me. we are going to talk about it by 7pm today and i d0nt know what to say. i am n0t that good with conversations. worse with confrontations.

Now i am really pathetic.