July 2nd, 2019
Was my grandfather's 96th Birthday
He came over for dinner
Everything was going great
Except then I got scared
July for 4 years
Has resulted in
PTSD triggers for me
Because of the hell I went
Through in 2015
With the disease
Myalgic Encephalomyelitis
Where it nearly took my life
But I've been good
No triggers last year
Tonight, I was afraid something
Would set me off
So I drank more
Alcohol than normal
To stave off
The fear
When taking a shower
After the festivities
Realization kicked in
That being drunk
Was never going to fix
That past memory hell
Only stone cold sober
Could I make sure that
July became again
Just another hot summer month
3 years and 11 months into remission
I'm not the same person as before
So much has changed
I've gotten stronger
As a soul
A human
ME may always be in my body
But it no longer defines me
It's just another part of me
Just not a dominant one
Neither is the PTSD
Hashimoto's
Depression or anxiety
As a warrior
I fight fire with fire
I shall seek to not
Stave off the darkness
But fight it with HaShem's heavenly light
I am G-d's child, after all.
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My Warrior Path (Book 6)
PoetryMy 6th poetry book starts September 10, 2018. After Walking Forward to the Beginning, it's now time to head towards the future and all of my goals and dreams; a warrior marching down her path as depicted on the cover. This book will also be edgier t...
