Back From Beginning #WATTYS2020 (Next Cycle Playlist #1)

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Back From Beginning
Chapter Forty-Seven

Hindi tulad noon na on schedule lang ang pagbisita sa akin ng psychiatrist, ngayon araw-araw na.

She gives me activities that would help my mental healing and I find them enjoying and relaxing. Nararamdaman ko na rin ang unti-unting pag recover ng utak ko at ang pag adjust nito sa normal na buhay. My paranoia attacks were gone now and the nightmares stopped coming back.

"Julia is recovering fast and I'm happy to announce that based on my observation during our previous therapies and sessions, she is ready for the world now."

Napangiti kaming lahat sa sinabi ng doktor. Niyakap din naman agad ako ni Noah and I felt him plant a kiss on my forehead.

Pagkatapos umalis ng psychiatrist ay niyakap din ako nina mama at papa. They were so happy about the news that they can't contain themselves.

"Akala ko talaga mawawala ka na sa amin anak." my mom cried and hearing her sob made me cry too.

"I lived mom... and I want to thank you for helping me get back on my feet again."

Tumango siya at mas lalong ibinaon ang mukha sa buhok ko.

"Mahal na mahal kita anak." naiyak na rin si papa.

The day went normal for us. I was expecting Noah to go back to working pero nanatili pa rin siya kahit na okay na ako.

"Hindi ka ba hinahanap sa agency niyo?" I laughingly joked as he played with my fingers.

"I filed for a leave, Julia. Gusto mo na bang umalis ako?"

Honestly, ayaw ko pa. But then, if he stays here, what about the career he worked so hard for?

"I want you here, pero paano ang career mo?"

"Is that an indirect love confession, Julia?"

Wala sa sarili ko siyang nilingon nang napagtanto ang sinabi niya. I almost forgot that I never confessed my feelings to him.

Nagulat siya sa naging reaksyon ko kaya napaupo na rin siya. I did the same and faced him.

"J-Julia..."

"I'm sorry kung huli ko nang nasabi. I wanted to tell you that night how I felt kaso nga, nakita ko kayo ni Julienne sa dressing room."

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin nang naalala ang mga salitang binuo ko sa isipan ko nang gabing iyon, thinking hard how to confess to him.

"It was one of the regrets I had when I almost died... me not being able to let you know how I really felt."

Naramdaman ko ang maingay na pagpatong ng kamay niya sa balikat ko and that made me look up to him and smile.

"I loved you, too... I wouldn't be so much hurt these past three years if I didn't, di ba?"

"W-What?"

"And it's not the love a fan has for a celebrity. It's the kind of love someone has for someone she cares so much about, for someone she cannot imagine life without, for someone she wants to spend her mornings and evenings with... for someone she wants to spend her second chance in life with."

"Took you long enough, huh?"

Pareho na kaming mukhang tangang tumatawa habang umiiyak. I pulled him for a hug when I felt like it was the best thing to do to make him feel how true my words were.

"Noah, I love you."

"And I love you, Julia."

Humiwalay siya sa yakap at tinitigan ang mukha ko. His eyes were illuminated by the small light coming from the window.