Perfect SCARS

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Endurance might not be easy but I choose to do so because  fighting only adds up to my scars

I have suffered, struggle and never succeeded to get out of this mad house

Am physically and emotionally drained... There's just nothing I can do at this point

Or so I thought....
I have given up on everything and time though really slow as moved and I won't be surprised if a couple of years has passed

By now he must probably think I enjoyed being pounded because I have learnt to deal with my predicament.. And adjust to my unpleasant situation

At times I just stare blankly as he enjoys himself... You need to hear the disgusting sounds he make.... I know i use to make some really annoying sounds before but now... It like my body and my mind are at war and refusing to respond to anything be it a dirty slap to the cheeks or his long fingers digging into my flesh... He loves doing that... He enjoys hurting me for no reason..... He's just psychotic.. Abnormal and dysfunctional.. No healthy, normal human being will treat a person the way he has been treating me

Ohh... I can't count how many times I want to just kill me...
Quite a number of times I've kept a knife 🔪 under my pillow... To just stab him a billion times or cut off his penis... I've been really close one time but I fidgeted and dropped the knife on the floor... I couldn't do it

But I know if I could just summon enough courage to end his life its be worth it.... No one would think otherwise.... Once they see the things he's done to me

My scars are well visible.... My head wound has a permanent 'I' shape scar on my forehead... I know how long it took to heal, how much it hurt when he was cleaning the wound with his stuff from his first aid kit

that was when I knew... He didn't want me dead, no matter how badly I behaved he would never kill me at least not physically because my spirit died years ago

I must be satisfying him very well sexually because he's always eager to bounce on me anytime of the day... There was a morning he walked into the bathroom while I was in it... I have actually not been bothered to lock the door but I never thought he'd come for me here in the bathroom

He was already dressed for work but I guees seeing me naked does things to him.... He removed his clothes and had his way with me right there in the bathroom

It was sad to know there's no hiding or breathing space for me in this house

The solution to leave this house didn't present itself easy... I had to think about it several times before I could conclude.... And I made sure I thought it through thoroughly.... This has to be it..

The first thing I did was try and make sure he had sex with me in his room.. I had to get familiar with the place and locate the keys ..... That wasn't so hard. .. Philip is a dog you can tame him anywhere

I made sure to locate the keys on the nightstand.... I made sure, it was always there so I had to make myself available on the bed inside his room frequently

This morning, he went for a jog so I went to his room with the mop and bucket, waiting for him to come before doing anything because I want him to meet me here.... The keys are probably in his pocket now

Then he showed up in his blue slacks .. Jogging in gracefully and sweaty... He looked..... So fine, how can such an horrible monster be so good looking.... It so unfair.. A person can not be this bad and allowed to look like a saint

Now is the time to focus... And concentrate on getting this done today without failing
I would say I made mistakes because I was younger and confused.. Not anymore

The door clicked open and I started mopping the floor... I heard him calling my name from downstairs and moved quickly to the toilet area and adjust my tight dress that I've outgrown.... Showing too much cleavage and lower part

It had to be done, You can only kill a man with what he loves to eat... Especially this kind of man... He opened the door few minutes later..

I could still hear his heavy breathing... I turned slowly to look at him and looked just my same pale innocent look

"Didn't You hear me call your name "

"No sir... I didn't "

"What are you doing "

I turned slowly pushing my hips forward to pick up my mop from the floor

"Am cleaning "

"You are just cleaning.. Since morning what have you been doing "

"Sleeping " I whispered looking down.. I just hope he doesn't send me out.. Now more than ever I want him to want me.. That's the only way

"Since morning... "
He hissed and sat on the bed removing his trainers

"Hurry up.. "
And hurry I did... I don't have time to waste I moved in his direction and swayed my hips as I mopped.. I know he was looking and without wasting time because he's a pig... He grabbed my waist and pulled me down..And lay on me I made a struggle sound and closed my eyes waiting for it to be over..

When he finally finshed, he fell to my side  making heavy pacing sound before snoozing off....

It worked... He's asleep, I know he always sleeps after jogging but I had to be in his room before he locks the door so I can get the key

I stood up quickly pulled on my clothes, took out all the money in his wallet, took his phone and walked out of the room quickly and locked him inside...

Not taking any risk because he might have an extra key inside... I grabbed my already packed bag from my room and hurried out of the house...

It was easy to open all doors because I have carefully noted them and when I was outside .. I threw his phone in the gutter and started walking away

I didn't even run. I am certain I am free.. What ever happens from here is totally up to me
And I'm not going to screw this up